Love, Hate, which to choose?

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Thursday, August 07, 2008

it sucks..
it sucks..
it jus plain sucks..

i miss feefa!
i need a dose of her real bad!
she listens and she's there
and she knows me well enough to tell me what i am like
and what to do and what to say
and even what i'm feeling right then
and helps make me feel better everytime =)

i need her! i soo need her!
but she's busy most of the time..
*sighs*

Friday!! come soon please!

Have got AN-TINA's lesson later on
and I so have no mood..
Just hope that she will treat us to something

And im broke broke broke..
Need to save up for tons of things!!
Have to go on a diet too..
Revise a new plan to save up cash..
Or i really shld kick up my plan up a notch!
either way it works =)

I have known this for a very long time..
but still..

*mental note 1*
dont be too much of a perfectionist
nothing can always be perfect all the time..
(even if its just in your eyes)

*mental note 2*
Dont get irritated and annoyed easily..
Endure more, Have more patience..

*mental note 3*
Express yourself more freely and better..
Dont keep it all in..
P.S-BE MORE SENSITIVE and NICER..

*mental note 4*
Sugar coat more =)
Be less sarcastic

*mental note 5*
When under stress keep your cool
and be less cranky..

Gosh! there's so much more..
argh! darn! forget it..
Basically i'm still back to square 1!

How lovely! =D

i better kick myself into bed..
and get someone to wake me up in the mornings..

Ahh! screw it! the wake up call system is easier said than done..
Motivation-Classmates & grades

*random thought*
I really shld pamper myself more..
havnt done that in a long long time.. =)
but then again..
my idea of pampering gets me even more broke..
so wad's the point?..
*sigh! sigh! double sigh!*

Now only one question remains..
Should i do that which i do not want to do?
But it means alot to him so i guess i should..
So i will..

Its easier said than done..
but i've been through worse..
If i have handled an entire night and half a day of weirdness..
I'm sure i can handle a few hours of it..

Still easier said than done..
Oh well..

It'll all get better in time *winks*

please believe me again at 12:44 AM