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Wednesday, November 29, 2006
WELL well well..
TODAE..well actually ystdae..
i went to work..it was actually training cum work..
N it was kinda fun N kinda boring N kinda tiring..LOL
gosh! my stomach is sooo damn pain!!!!..aRgH!
Newaes..COOMI my trainer has a weird name..LOL..
But she is kinda alright..i guess
I prefer the other girl there though..
She's much friendlier..Her name's ANASTASIA..
Opposite the shop i am working at..There's this transexual i think..
Well tt women is HELL FUNNY!
She was like telling all three if us when we were bored that..
She has 4 things we gals don't have..N its BBBS..
The 1st B for the Beauty..(and she posed n gave a funny expression..LOL)
The 2nd B for the Boobs!..(N she bent a lil low to show her boobies..LOL)
The 3rd B for the BODY..(N she traced her arms down her body..hahaxz..)
N for the final S..a SMILE!..(N she smiled..LOL)
--SHE's SUCH a DRAMA QUEEN..LOL..but i like it..it was real entertaining..hehexz..--
Another lady working wif that women is also very nicee..
I soo totally LUV my working environment..its fun n lively..wif all those working there..
But it gets boring when there are no customers..
I like my job..N i guess i didn't do too bad for a first timer working there..
or anywhere for that matter..
WORKING AT VIVO IS NICEE!
N todae's MY BELOVED pArTnER's BIRTHDAE!!!!!
HOPE U'LL HAVE A GREAT DAE! =))
LUV YA AMANDA!!!!
MUACKZ! MUACKZ!
HmM..wad else..Well..ystdae i certainly didn't expect any msges from anyone when i was working n after work ended..
N was kinda surprised that i did get some msges..LOL..
well its jus sweet unexpected surprises..=)
N well i noe i said i miss certain ppl..but maybe..JUS maybe..i don't anymore..
So stop teasing me GIRLFREN!..LOL..
oOh..I can't WAIT
for the CRAZY n WHACKED up things WE'RE gonna do at PROM!..LOL..
LUV YA! =))
i keep on wondering n wondering..
wad do u mean when u say those words..
are they meant for me??
well if they aren't..why do i still feel guilt??..
i don't understand this feeling
N i don't want to..
Everytime i think abt it..
I feel even more confused
I feel lonely..I feel sad..
but most of all..i am scared
*~TeMpTaTiOn~* #~DeSiRe~#*
~LuSt~*#~pAsSiOn~#
*****InTeNsItY of SINS*****
~SAY WHAT YOU MEAN..
N MEAN WHAT YOU SAY~
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Sunday, November 26, 2006
FINALLY got my PROM dress!
Hopefully..noone else is gonna wear the same one!..LOL
Its gorgeous N i absolutely LUVVVV IT!
I can probably wear it to my uncle's wedding too..
At least that's wad my mum says..We'll see..haahxz..
Oh..that reminds me..
I can't wait to go to Amrit's bro's wedding dinner on dec 18!!!
Am soo EXCITED!!! =))
Speaking of excitment..
I finally got a sms telling me that I have to go for training for my job
AT VIVO on the 28th(tues) from 4pm till 10pm..
Its KINDA late..BUT WHO CARES!
At least I know now that I'm gonna work!..hahaxz..
N I'm gonna be working at VIVO on thursdae which
IS on the day of my PROM night..
That dae is gonna be ONE HELL of a HECTIC dae cuz of THAT..
But at least I'll give a good impression to my boss..
So I don't CARE either..LOL
All that put aside..I thought I could put my heart out of the equation..
But its gonna take some time..*sighs*..TO HELL WITH IT!
N for the past few daes..All I'm been doing is sleeping n sleeping
N having weird DREAMS..in which certain PEOPLE keep on APPEARING!
Why??? I don't understand..I just wish these dreams never happened!!!!
Oh i watched the movie THE MISTRESS of SPICES n its quite nicee..
AISWARIYA RAI is quite HOTT n PRETTY!
N i finally watched the movie FANAA completely finish!
Its soo NICEE!
I like this phrase in the movie:
May my life's breath find refuge in your heart..
Destroyed in your love may my life depart..
Okies..MOVING ON..
I'M TIRED N SLEEPY!
N i wanna DREAM summore!..LOL..
So nitezZ everyone!!!!
*pReCioUs iLLuSioNs*
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Friday, November 24, 2006
ok..So todae i spoke to Dhinesh after a long time..
N todae..Karthik left for M'sia..so sadd..
N todae i met up wif my bestie FINALLY!!!!
I've MISSED her LIKE CRAZY!!!!!
Went Vivocity todae n I checked out my future WORKPLACE!!!!
Its quite alrite..N i still think i'm LUCKY to land a job at VIVO!
Priya went for a interview..N she has kinda got the job..
But SERIOUSLY she can do wayyy BETTER!
So i told her to look for somemore JOBS!
Oh..N todae Ate at SWENSON's N after that I felt that throwing up more than half the time..CUZ i ate TOO MUCH! ..LOL
N todae when I was in da MRT train back home..I met MALAR!
OH..N i finally talked to SuMoNe being SuMoNe ELSE!..haizz..
But STILL I fianlly got to TALK to that SUMONE!!! =))
N my bestie has finally CAUGHT UP wif wad's been HAPPENING in my life!
I'm SOO GLAD she UNDERSTANDS! Luv ya!
=)
Well..so todae i went to look for PROM DRESSES!
I couldn't get any..So I'm gonna go VIVO again tmr to find SOME..
I jus CAN't WAIT! LOL..
Gosh..I'm soo gonna miss u..and all the confusion u've given me..
Guess now all i've got to do is take my heart out of the equation..
Just hope that it wouldn't be too hard to do..
N todae I met my long lost fren SITI SUHANA!!!!
All those crazy times we've had..I SOO MISS THEM!
In primary 3..
i rmb us calling each other lychee n mango (our nicknames cuz they were our fav fruits..LOL)
In primary 4..
i rmb her telling me that she ran to my FnN teacher's daughter yelling my name..
Only to finally realise that she wasn't me..hahaxz..
i rmb us playing UNO at the bus interchange..
N we missed 3 buses for each other..till the time was 7pm..LOL
N our principal called my mother n she actually came down to the interchange..
N i got hell after that..N i wasn't supposed to hang out wif her after that..LOL
But i still did!..
In primary 5..
i rmb her, me n xiu rong seeing each other n running to each other at the bus interchange..
then, right outside that sundry shop we hugged each other..
n then we held each others' hands and ran around in a circle!..LOL..
i rmb us eating nectar while walking to heartland mall..
i rmb us pretending to smoke..LOL
i rmb us getting sushi..
N everytime we ran out of money..
we actually were thinking of taking up a job at macs!..LOL
i rmb us inventing some secret frenship handshake..
i rmb us leaving our bags at the bus interchange while we went to the sundry shop to get smth..
N her bag was stolen..N she cried like crazy!!!
i rmb her telling me abt her family..(sob stories)..
In primary 6..
i rmb the results we got for PSLE..me with a bad 207(i think)..n she wif a bad 100 over marks..
we knew we wldn't be together..=((((
I miss all the fun times..
I miss all the crazy times..
I miss all the sadd n sorry times..
I miss her..
Memories are CHERISHED n TREASURED! N never to be FORGOTTEN!
N though i met her last yr or 2 yrs ago..i thought we wldn't be seeing each other again..
But then I did..
Well I guess there is such a thing as FATE afterall!
Everyone is in another person's life FOR a reason..
N each person in your life touches ur life in a very special way
that only that very person can..
You may not know why you are in that particular person's life..playing your role as a fren..
But sooner or later..you'll REALISE..that maybe without you that person's life wld take a different course.. One that might not be so pleasent..
All the friends we have..they are gifts! We should treasure them!
For the very moment they are gone..We'll never have another like them to replace them..
Guess that its all in FATE
that we met todae n FINALLY got a chance to speak for awhile n exchange numbers..
Finally..we'll get to catch up wif each other!
C'est La Vie!
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Thursday, November 23, 2006
Omg! How TIME flies!!!!!!
Okies..i haven't been updating for the past few daes..
they've been jus SOO HECTIC! LOL
So on the 21st I had school..i had to get my leaving cert n stuff..
After that I went to see Amrit n we were first soo OBSESSED abt our sci. MCQ ppr's ANSWERS
But then after that was done..WE went to LOOK FOR JOBS!!!!
For the FIRST TIME i actually LOOKED into the classified newspaper properly..LOL
Gosh! JOBS are SOO DIFFICULT TO GET these daes!
Finally found this job at CHANGI AIRPORT n
we decided to go for the interview the very next dae,,
The VERY NEXT dae..was hectic as hell..i DREAMT abt a fren N woke up LATE!!!!
N so did AMRIT!..LOL
Aniwaes..We EVENTUALLY made it to the job interview at 4pm..AFTER getting lost..LOL
EMBARASSING i tell u!..
In the end..we left the place without even submitting the application form
CUZ the PAY was SOOO LOW!!!!! 2.50 per hr for 4 mths??? U have GOTTA be KIDDING me!
BEING soo SAD..n to MAKE the most of our dae..WE went to buy that dae's newspaper
N we started LOOKING for JOBS!..
After abt 2 calls..We FINALLY GOT an INTERVIEW!!!
They extended the time of the interview JUS FOR US..LOL
N it wasn't a waste too!!!!!
They WERE IMPRESSED by US! =))))
N todae WE got a CALL from them telling us that WE GOT THE JOB!!!!!
N we're gonna be working at VIVOCITY!!!!!!..LOL..
GOSH!!!! I'M SOO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaxz,, =)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
WHEEEEeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!! =)))))))))))
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Monday, November 20, 2006
Os ARE FINALLY OVERRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!
YUPPZ! THEY ARE OVER!!!!!
NO MORE BOOKS!!!!
NO MORE MUGGING!!!!
YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ITS ALL OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ITS UNBELEIVABLE!!!!
ITS OVERRR!!!!
LOL!!!
N TODAE's KARTHIK's B'dae!!!!
HAPPY SEVENTEENTH!!!!! =)))
I was SLEEPING todae when I GOT A CALL..
The VOICE told me "Can yOu TALK to me for AWHILE??"
I KNEW smth was WRONG!
I tried EVERYTHING I COULD do..
But I know there's NTH i can do NOW..
FOR wad's DONE is DONE!..
How could YOU make a person HURT tt much...
iS BEYOND me!
Hearing the voice BREAKING up..
Wif SOBS..I could JUS feel the PAIN..
Will YoU EVER realise ANY of iT??
N CHANGE??!!
It tearS ME up INSIDE
to even HEAR someone I care ABOUT being in SUCH a CONDITION..
YeT dOesn'T iT HuRt YOU even A LITTLE
to SEE someone WHO CARES for U soo MUCH in TEARS??
ItS SOO SADD!!!!
WoN'T YoU EVER LEARn??
WiSh it NEVER happened..
ANYWAES..NO MATTER WAD..IT's YOUR dae!!!!! KEEP SMILING!!!!
DESPITE YOUR TROUBLES N WORRIES..KEEP LAUGHING!!!!!
CAST YOUR WORRIES AWAY!!!!
N RMB I SHALL ALWAES BE THERE FOR U!!! =))
I jus CAN'T BELEIVE IT!..ITS ALL OVER NOW!
Wheeeee!!!! hahaxz..LOL..
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Sunday, November 19, 2006
Well..I havn't updated for such a long time!!!
HmM..lets see wads been gg on for the past few daes..
On Fri..I sorta screwed up my FnN..I don't think i'll do so well..
N since all of my frens were tired after the sucky ppr..we all went home to get some shut eye..
The next dae I went out to ESCAPE!!!
Had a good time..though I vomited n sorta didn't noe anyone..
Tried out most of the rides for the first time in my life! Thanks to a few frens
N SUMONE who jus DRAGGED me all the way to the queue of the game!..LOL
It was sooo FUN!!!! wheee...hahaxz..
But now my whole body is aching..N i think i've got some bruises too!..sobbs..
Amrit came over jus now N we ordered pizza..We made soo many complains..
N we got 4 LARGE pizzas for the price of one..jus imagine tt!
N We're ALL having a pizza party now..N Amrit was havin a pizza fever too! :P
Amrit came over to study n we covered about 4 chapters..which i guess is good enuf..
Now I noe i've got loads more to study..
But i think i shall slack jus a tad bit longer b4 getting back to that..
Yuppz! =))
It's PIZZA TIME!!!! hehexz..
cya later! =)))))))))
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Thursday, November 16, 2006
I need to stop THINKING of ...
... are ALWAES in my thoughts
I CARE more about ... than i do OTHERS at times..
I hate the way ... make me SMILE..n LAUGH..
I hate the way ... BOTHER about me..
I hate the way just A CALL from ... can make me SO GLAD..
I hate the way you OPEN UP to me TELLING me ur PROBLEMS..
N MOST of ALL I hate the way I MISS ...
N the WORST thing is I LOVE it ALL the SAME!!!
Stuck by Stacie Orrico:
I hate u..but i love u..I can't stop thinking of u..Its true..I'm stuck on u..
Now I wish I never knew ...
I wish I never did get CLOSER to ...
N I wish we were still like STRANGERS..
EMOTIONS..being suppressed..N NEVER to BE REVEALED
The Last 2 daes n todae is wad u call
intensive FnN revision!!! But it was fun too..
Ate like a pig!..Studied like some knowledge hungry person too..hMm..i guess..LOL..
Studying at AMRIT's hse was soo fun..N my PARENTS AMAZINGLY let me STAY OVER!
N my mum was soo irritating..asking TASHA, who was also studying wif us..if it was FOR REAL!
HELL it's for REAL!
WHY WOULD I LIE?? WHAT REASON HAVE I GIVEN YOU TO NOT TRUST ME??
YET YOU DON'T TRUST ME..I NOE..N IT HURTS THE MOST..BUT I NEVER COMPLAIN..
gosh!..
Okies..MOVING ON..LOL.. Tasha n I stayed over at Amrit's hse..N we studied till 5.30am..
JUST IMAGINE that..WE were SOO FnNified..that even B4 we slept we spoke FnN..LOL
I missed my COMPUTER like hell!!!..But managed to live without it..
The next dae..Amrit came over to MY hse to STAY OVER! We SLACKED like CRAZY! N WE also STUDIED like CRAZY! till 4am..
N todae morning I went over to Amrit's hse AGAIN to study! N Tasha ALSO came over!
WE had TONNS of FUN!!! N we studied..Tasha stayed over at Amrit's n I left for HoMe!
N now I'm back..N I realise that I missed doing ALOT of THINGS..such as this..AND MY FRIENDS TOO!
like they say..ABSENCE MAKES THE HEART GROW FONDER..ITS SOO TRUE..
Btw..whoever this MACY GREY (wif AFRO HAIR) person is..ALL i've to say is I don't think she made a HIT by her singing..BUT she did so by her HILARIOUSNESS! CERTAIN people should noe why..LOL
N another thing is that I dunno if I should go to prom..haizz..I soo WANNA go CLUBBING too..but I dunno if its EVEN POSSIBLE..
N I dunno if i should tell another lie again n go out wif my frens to ESCAPE..*sighs*
But what i DO KNOW is that after the FnN paper tmr..I'll be going SWENSEN's N then I'll be WATCHING STEP-UP!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!! LOL..
ITS GONNA BE SOO FUNNNNN!!!!!!!!! N I JUST CAN'T WAIT!!!!
but b4 that I need to STUDY HARD..i've still got to study summore for FnN..haizz..
THEN..i can PLAY HARD!!!!
I better go back to my FnN..
But b4 I do..I have to say that these past 2 daes n todae..has thought me
LOTS of things..ABOUT frens,life,love n loads of other stuff..
AND..and..when i was leaving for home todae..i saw AKISHA again..she's soo gorgeous..she's soo cuutteee..the moment she saw me walk past her gate..she came RUNNING out to the gate of her hse just to SEE ME..N she told me BYYEEEE!!! N gave me a FLYING KISS!!!..She's soo sweet..She doesn't noe it..BUT she has CHANGED me as well..
Okies..enuf talk..got to go back to studies..--urgh--..Its SOOO "FUN"!!!!..LOL..
hehexz..=)))))))))))))))))
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Monday, November 13, 2006
Had Lit Paper 2 todae..It was OK i guess..but i could have done BETTER..HOPEFULLY i can PASS my lit..as everyone say i can..After the paper, went to SWENSENS!!!with a fren n the food was soo GOOD!..OF COURSE!N we got this CUTE looking GUY as our waiter..hEhE..HE made A MISTAKE with our ORDER..N me n my friend tried to GET him PROMOTED by writing in their FEEDBACK form that he was a GOOD waiter..LOLN moreover..his name was KUMARAN..LOL..HAHAXZ..okies..NOONE would UNDERSTAND that..except CERTAIN people..Got a SuRpRiSe call too..I REALLY DIDN'T EXPECT IT..its FUNNY how EVEN the SMALLEST things MATTER to me.......
Then went to my fren's hse to study FnN n we ENDED UP playing with her neighbour's KID!
She's SOOO CUTEEE N PRETTY!!!!Gosh..the way she TRUSTED me..when she DOESN'T even KNOW me..
N the way she laughed when we PRETENDED to be ASLEEP..
N the way she SQUIRMED when we TICKLED her..N the way she SPEAKS!!!
N the way that she SMILES!!!! N the way she HOLDS your HAND!!!
N the way she HUGS you N KISSES you...
She's just the SWEETEST thing!!!!!
I LOVE HER!!!! hahahaxz..okies..that was abit weird..but I SWEAR if u ever MET her..you'll FALL in LOVE with her too!Another StRaNgE thing is that me n my fren LOOK totally ALIKE!WE look EXACTLY like SISTERS..n todae..we DID everything at the same time..N EXACTLY the same way! N what makes it ALL the MORE SCARIER was that we actually SPOKE the EXACT same words AT the SAME time! N this isn't the first time its HAPPENING..talk about SCARY!!!HmM..i think we are LONG LOST sisters or something..LOL,,We played BLUFF again n I FINALLY leart how to play TAI TI!!!! (if that is even how u spell it..LOL..)Ate LIKE A PIG TODAE..N also LAUGHED my ASS OFF!!!!finally got home at nearly 9pm..N ALL i've got to SAY is..
I HAD a BLAST!!!It WAS such A FUN FUN FUN DAE!!! WhEeEee!!!! =))))))))
Meri Adhuri Kahaani......
please believe me again at 8:53 PM
I LOVE THIS SONG: TU HI MERI SHAB HAI
ITS SOO SWEET!!!!! =)))))
tu hi meri shab hai subha hai tu hi din hai mera
you are my night, my morning, you are my day
tu hi mera rab hai jahaan hai tu hi meri duniya
you are my God, my world, you are my world
tu waqt mere liye main hoon tera lamha
you are time for me, I am just a moment for you
kaise rahega bhala hoke tu mujhse judaa
how will you live parted from me?
tu hi meri shab hai subha hai tu hi din hai mera
you are my night, my morning, you are my day
tu hi mera rab hai jahaan hai tu hi meri duniya
you are my God, my world, you are my world
tu waqt mere liye main hoon tera lamha
you are time for me, I am just a moment for you
kaise rahega bhala hoke tu mujhse judaa
how will you live parted from me?
aankhon se padhke tujhe dil pe maine likha
I read you with my eyes and kept you in my heart
tu ban gaya hai mere jeene ki ek wajah
you have become one of my reasons for living
ho aankhon se padhke tujhe dil pe maine likha
I read you with my eyes and kept you in my heart
tu ban gaya hai mere jeene ki ek wajah
you have become one of my reasons for living
teri hasi teri adaa auron se hai bilkul judaa
your laughter, your charm is totally different from others
aankhen teri shabnami chehra tera aaina
your eyes are like dew, your face is a mirror
tu hai udaasi bhari koi haseen dastaan
you are a pretty story full of sorrow
ho aankhen teri shabnami chehra tera aaina
your eyes are like dew, your face is a mirror
tu hai udaasi bhari koi haseen dastaan
you are a pretty story full of sorrow
dil mein hai kya kuchh toh bata
what is in your heart say some thing
kyon hai bhala khud se khafa
tell me why you are mad at yourself
tu hi meri shab hai subha hai tu hi din hai mera
you are my night, my morning, you are my day
tu hi mera rab hai jahaan hai tu hi meri duniya
you are my God, my world, you are my world
tu waqt mere liye main hoon tera lamha
you are time for me, I am just a moment for you
kaise rahega bhala hoke tu mujhse judaa
how will you live parted from me?
HOW I WISH...........
In less than 7 hours..i'll be laying flowers on my life..
*sighs*
Hope all will go well..like how everyone tells me it would..
MERI ADHURI KAHAANI.......
please believe me again at 12:15 AM
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Sunday, November 12, 2006
So let's talk about DEATH!
Why are soo many people afraid of it??
Why do soo many people hate talking abt it??
I really dunno n HONESTLY I really can't be bothered..
HERE's the FACT OF LIFE!
PEOPLE are BORN then THEY DIE!
Its a SIMPLE FACT of human condition..we CAN'T be IMMORTALS..
N being immortal is NOT all that good ANYWAY..
So it GOOD to DIE
Death is just a ROAD we all have to WALK on..Its not an ENTRANCE TO HELL..
GOD has a PLAN for ALL of US..
SOME of US like it..SOME DON'T..
N it DIDN'T take me to die to FIGURE that OUT..
INSTEAD it took me to FEEL the EMPTINESS INSIDE
for the 2 times my TRUEST FREN died..
N guess wad..SHE's STILL ALIVE!
Its FATE..
If you are MEANT to DIE..
You'll DIE..
There's NO POINT in avoiding it..
EMBRACE it!
If I DIE todae..then GOODBYE..
If I DoN'T..then well i guess..todae's your LUCKY DAY to see me ALIVE but UNHAPPY again..
N yea..its difficult to say GOODBYE..but don't you think you've got to SAY it ANYWAY??
Its TRUE that GOODBYE is the saddest word ANYONE would EVER HEAR..
N its true that GOODBYE is the LAST TIME you'll be ABLE to HOLD that person NEAR..
But once that final GOODBYE is SAID..you can HOLD that PERSON DEAR FOREVER!
It HURTS..but its also the ONLY thing that would make you feel ALIVE..
DEATH!..CoMe N GeT mE..MuAhAhAhA..
please believe me again at 11:23 PM
TOMORROW'S MY LIT PAPER!!!!
It kinda feels like my life's being on hold..
This Paper n the next upcoming papers..
COULD VERY WELL jus SEAL MY FATE!
I guess..i better get started on it..
n
stop thinking abt things that are never gonna happen
no matter how much i want them to..
*sighs*
MERI ADHURI KAHAANI....
please believe me again at 4:52 PM
U noe wad?..Wadever happened on the 10th
which was 2 daes ago was pretty lame..
it was really stupid of me to get pissed off at such a thing..
YOU should have known better n should have
jus spoken to me normally after that dae,,
I wldn't have said a thing abt wad happened..
Except that i am srry..But you shouldn't have left things
hanging that way either..n that is wad makes me angry
now..n nothing else..i am not soo petty as to get angry n
pissed off at some stupid thing like that..
If you know me well by now..you would noe that...
N if i'm not talking properly to you..
N if you noe me well..You would noe that
something was wrong with me..
BuT i GUESS that YOU jus DON'T EVEN KNOW ME..
like i thought YOU did..
such a dissapointment..
GuYs PiSs yOu oFf..
EnTeR yOuR LiFe..cOnFuSE yOu N yOuR LifE..tHeN LeAvE yOuR LiFe..
StILL lEavInG yOu CoNfUsEd..
wad can i say..am irritated wif all of them..
okay..maybe not all..there ARE SOME EXCEPTIONS..LOL
=)))))
please believe me again at 4:30 PM
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Saturday, November 11, 2006
WeNt tO AMRIT's place todae..
Studied FnN..n slacked..
N watched a movie: GANGSTER(A LOVE STORY)
It was hot hot hot..
IT was about true love..trust..honesty..betrayal..lust..dreams..hope n faith..
I ABSOLUTELY LUVED IT!!!!
N we played BLUFF too!!
It was fun fun fun..
Jus got back home..
N am havin a TERRIBLE headache!!!! ArGh!
I luv the song BE WITHOUT U by MARY J BLIGE..
i mean i don't really like her..but..that song is SOO NICEEE
I hate it cuz it ALWAES REMINDS me of the things I DON'T HAVE
n WISH i HAD..But I luv it too for EXACTLY the SAME REASON...
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I got a question for ya
See I already know the answer
But still I wanna ask you
Would you lie? (no)
Make me cry? (no)
Do somethin' behind my back
and then try to cover it up?
Well, neither would I, baby
My love is only your love (yes)
I'll be faithful (yes)
I'm for real (yes)
And with us you'll always know the deal
We've been...
Too strong for too long (and I can't be without you baby)
And I'll be waiting up until you get home (cuz I can't sleep without you baby)
Anybody who's ever loved, ya know just what I feel
Too hard to fake it, nothing can replace it
Call the radio if you just can't be without your baby
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LETS JUST SEE HOW MUCH YOU CARE FOR ME NOW...
N HOW LONG IS IT GONNA TAKE BEFORE WE SPEAK AGAIN...
please believe me again at 9:14 PM
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Friday, November 10, 2006
FINE! SO BE THAT WAY!
I'M UNREASONABLE AT TIMES I KNOW!
SO SUE ME!!!!
Yea..u sure showed you care!..Tell me how again??..
u din noe i had a terrible dae..
Actually u didn't even bother asking me..
N even that is perfectly alright..
Well so i had a bad dae N you din noe abt it..FiNE..
So when i tell u to not do smth..don't do it..
I have my reasons for telling you so..
When you did wad i told u not to do,,
I'm srry..But it jus got me irritated..
I noe its supposed to be a joke-insert laughs here-
But i SOO WASN'T IN A JOKEY MOOD TODAE..
I WAS kinda DEPRESSED!..really..
i was soo low..i CaNnOt believe i let it CONTROL me..AGAIN..
N
I went online..hoping that maybe SOMEONE
might cheer me up..
N guess wad?..No one could..Only U could..
N for that..I've got to tell U..
THANK U SOO MUCH!
LUV YA!!!!
U NOE I DO..N ALWAES WILL!!!!
My eyes are red n tired..N I wanna go rot sumwhere n die..
LEAVE ME ALONE!
LEts jus see how much you CARE now..
Will u leave me alone??..
or will u try to get thru to me..
which will be like a CRAZY BITCH RIDE from HELL!
SO TAKE YOUR PICK!..
N then we'll see jus how much u care!
Cuz i care for my frens more than they'll ever noe..
Sometimes i wonder if they even deserve it..
But you noe wad..I NOE THEY DO..
So whenever that doubt comes to my mind..
I GET RID of it the VERY NEXT SECOND! =))
please believe me again at 11:48 PM
Finally..she's there when i needed her..
She helped me out wif my maths..
But i guess that wasn't enough..
I am soo gonna flunk my math..
SCREWED it up..
People tell me that
its not the EnD of the WORLD..
bUt its the END of ME..
I dunno wad to do now..
After the paper went
to my fren's hse..
i didn't mean for it to happen..
but I ended up BReAkING DoWn..
feeling better NOW..
YeT deep DOWN..am soo DARN sadd..
N there's nothing i or ANYONE can do abt it,, *sighs*
Another thing that frustrates me..
is that you alwaes seem to be there for me..
Treating ME better than sumone ELSE
you should be CARING more about..
I'm not complaining..
Afterall..i'm a gal..i like tt kinda attention..
But take a gd look at it..where is it heading??
You treat every gal the way you treat me..
N that's fine..
My only qn to you now is..
What do u do or say to the one that is
MOST spEciaL to U
to make HER feel like she MEANs the WORLD to U??
jUsT a "i LOVE u"??
It wouldn't mean a thing
if you aren't inseperably CLOSE to her..
StOp iT!..I dun want you treating me like you do all others..
I don't want you seemingly treating me more better
ThAn that SUMONE who is SpeCial to U
SoMeoNe oNcE sAiD:
DON'T BE TOO GOOD..I MIGHT MISS YOU..
DON'T BE TOO CARING..I MIGHT LIKE YOU..
DON'T BE TOO SWEET..I MIGHT FALL FOR YOU..
N Its TRUE..iN eVeRY way!!!
n I don't wanna fall..cuz in the end..EVERYONE will GET hurt..
DoN'T fool AROUND..DoN'T play AROUND..
Don'T give FALSE HOPES N DoN'T call me ANYTHING u wanna..
Cuz I'M NOT yours..
THINK before you EVEN utter a SINGLE word..
AlwAeS remember..U are TALKING to a girl..
be THERE for ME as A friend..
N don't even think for a single SECOND
that i'm hot,, or sexy,, or pretty,, or beautiful,,
CuZ U aren't entitled to it..
BE LOYAL n COMPLETELY COMMITTED..
TO THE ONE U LOVE..
Wif all UR heart,, body,,mind,,n soul..
YeS..iT is DIFFICULT..
BUT
you'll NEVER regret it..
N if you hate being committed..
Do EVERYONE a favour..
N get out of it..
Then GO OUT THERE
n HAVE FUN!
yOu Can go CRAZY..be WILD!
N noone will SAY a thing..
BuT if you choose to stay..
tHen..be WiLD n go CrAzY..
wif that SpeCial sumone..
N you'll know that no matter wad..
you'll alwaes be TOGETHER FOREVER!
N SHARE your INNERMOST thoughts
TO the OnE yOu LOVE..
cUz you WANT to..N not cuz you NEED to..
TRUST HER..CHERISH HER..TREASURE HER..LOVE HER..
N MAKE HER YOUR EVERYTHING..
n
DoN't EVER think about ANOTHER when you are away from her..
n
AlwAeS think about only HER even in A CROWD
N leave me ALONE! =))
please believe me again at 8:07 PM
okay..i was really angry
wif a certain sumone
much earlier todae..
actually ystdae..
Aniwaes..talking to KARTHIK
helped..ALOT
There i was sleeping N
i suddenly got a phonecall
N it was him..
U can call it a sweet surprise
cuz i really didn't expect a call
from him..
TALKED ALOT of CRAP!!!
It was FUN fUN fuNny..=)
N apparently..
SUMONE surprisingly.. APOLOGISED!!!
hahaxz..LOL
But it seems that's not enough..
Well i guess that SUMONE
has got to do soo MUCH more
to be really forgiven..
I would jus say..that PERSON
DESERVES it..hehe..
Oh..i also have to grant
A certain SUMONE
a birthdae WISH..
But the thing is..if i grant
that person his b'dae wish..
what will be his b'dae wish
ON his b'dae??..hMm..
So maybe i shldn't grant it after all..
Should i??..We'll see..hahaxz..
Random fact of the dae:
If sumone is seduced..
He'll totally give in..LOL
(dun wrry k..its not like i'll seduce u)..hehexz..
HmM..tmr is mAtH ppr 2..
N i really hope i can do better
than to just pass the paper..
N thx for trying to convince me
that it'll be ok..
BUT.........
nothing is for CERTAIN..
=((
Okies..i'm gonna go sleep..
Sweet dreams EVERYONE!
NITEY NITEZzzzz...=))
please believe me again at 12:55 AM
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Thursday, November 09, 2006
Geog paper todae..
It was RATHER ok..
okok..it was also KINDA SHITTY..
but hey..i AT LEAST managed to
finish up the ppr..=))
N tmr's math! math! MATH!!!
i dunno how i am gonna do it..SOBS..
i NEED to do well in math..arGh..
But i'll TRY..
N
Don't you HATE it when people let you down??
They'll tell you one thing n get ur hopes ALL UP..
N the next second..they will take BACK
what they said..giving you SOME excuse
N let you down..
Guess wad?..i hate u!
Why did you have to do tt??
It WASN'T even my idea..
I told u it was ok..
But NOO..you WANTED to HELP
Yea..look at how FAR your help
has brought me..
You said its ok..you said you'd help
I NEVER asked you to..you SAID it so urself
N yet when it comes right down
to DOING the deed..
You jus tell me that you CAN'T help me out..
N you try PATCHING things up..wif ME..
by telling me to call YOU if i need any help
HELLO! When i needed your help..
You said you WOULD help me..
N then you went back on your WORDs
N now..you are telling me to
TRUST u??
RELY on you??
BELIEVE u??
I'm srry i can't..
U are UNRELIABLE!
N that's the bitter truth!
I thought you might change wif time..
BUT i guess..i was WRONG..
in THINKING u would
PROVE me WRONG!
I really HOPE you'll CHANGE..
Yea..i know SOME other people
in your life
are more impt to you
than me..
But did you have to do this?
U brought my hopes up..
Then you jus CRUSHED them
How can i ever learn to trust u?
I guess..if you want
smth done well..
then you've gotta do it urself..
But U know its difficult
to do this by myself..
Well..U should know..
I don't do too well ON MY OWN..
Yet you tell me
you'll be there when i need u..
guess wad?..U are never there!
But i hav alwaes been there for u..
Can someone PLZ tell me why i am
Alwaes there for u..
When you aren't there FOR me?
Cuz i really dunno y..
I guess its jus
the CURSE of being TOO NICEE!
*sighs*
How i WISH i could tell this
to your face..But i noe i'd NEVER..
I hate u! I really do..
Call yourself a FRIEND?..
I think you NEED to look
that up in MY dictionary..
SuRpRisE! sUrPriSE!
U WON'T be there!
I am jus soo angry wif you!
GOSH!
Aniwaes..I better get started
on my MATH!
I really really hope to do ok..
SOMETIMEs..
When you are soo AFRAID..
Its DIFFICULT to BREATHE,,
N Its HaRd to even TRY..
N for those who have
ALWAES been there FOR me.
i jus wanna say..
I LUV U GUYS! =)))))
Okies..byyyez!
please believe me again at 5:59 PM