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Thursday, August 28, 2008
i just feel sucky
super sucky..
from the time i woke up..
and nth could make me feel better
and even the end of the day sucks..
and now my hearts feeling heavy..
*sighs*
i guess i wanna be alone rt now..
just be by myself..
ah well..sleep wld make it better..
and there's pp to do as well..
wheee!
oh! boo!
i hate it!
please believe me again at 12:33 AM
Y
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
honestly..
i'm tired..
and i dont care anymore..
*i wish i may..
i wish i might..
wish on a star tonight..*
if only..
i knew..
sometimes..
what is heard and what is spoken...
isnt the same as what is felt..
wad an end to another almost perfect day..
i need you..and i miss you..
*sighs*
*i'll not wonder abt it again..even if i do..
i wont ask..-mental note to self..remember*
please believe me again at 1:26 AM
Y
Monday, August 18, 2008
Went out with Mars today..
and it turned out to be an outing with Mars and Cindy today..haha
Met Mars to go to Acer
and though Baby woke me up at 8.30
and i wanted to leave at 9.30 to be on time..
i left wayy later cuz Mars woke up late..
and since i took a bus down..
Mars ended up waiting for me for 2 whole hours!
omg! i felt damn bad the whole day for that..
Anw, at Acer Cindy called..
so we told her to join us..
we made her bring her lappie and a screwdriver
so that we cld fix our lappies..hehe
the stooopid ppl at Acer told both Mars and i
to get an external hardisk casing to retrieve all our data..
so on the hunt we went for it..
Went to IMM..
and then met Cindy
and took a bus down to Funan..
we were talking about everything..
from the BBQ to lots of other stuff..
interesting conversations..
hahaha
Finally got our external hardisk casing..
But..my data could not be retrieved..
Mars bought the external hardisk casing..
and then Cins and i bought Subway and we went to Starbucks..
there Mars and Cins helped to retrieve my data again..
and i have to say this..
MARDIYAHHHH!
CINDYYYY!
I LOVE YOU GIRLS!!!!
MARDIYAH'S EXTERNAL HARDISK CASING!!!
CINDY'S LAPPIE!!!
THANK YOUUU!
I LOVE YOU TOOO!!!
=D =D =D =D
Sorry for the madness BUT...
I RETRIEVED my PP!
and all my pics!
and some games!
and my sch work!
=D =D =D =D =D
Can a girl get any happier??
hahaha
Oh yes she can!
cuz i got to wash my hand behind the Starbucks counter! =)
the people there are real nice..
and funny..hahaha
Just wish i had seen my Baby today like i wanted to..
Ah well..
Some other time i guess..
Ohh!
I saw a motorcycle accident on my way home..
So people when its raining please drive safely..
LOVE Y'ALL! =)
please believe me again at 11:42 PM
Why do our ties get broken as years go along?
-think abt it
please believe me again at 12:47 AM
Y
Saturday, August 16, 2008
*this is for B.M**take this as our 6th mth anniversary entry since the actual one is now lost in my lappie*P.S* I LOVE YoU! =)i read all the letters you have given me tonight
and as i read them all i have to say is this
from the moment we first met
i thought you were the best
you made me laugh from the bottom of my heart
made me forget all my cares and worries
i do not know when we got together
but i dont really care either
lets just take it as the day our eyes first met each other
12/2/08
thats the day i'll never forget
thats the day i started saving up all the smses you sent me
not even letting one get deleted
cuz i wanna hold on to every memory
good or bad it doesnt matter
cuz all i remember is the good
baby love, i dont want this to ever end..
i cant bear to watch if what we build goes down in vain..
i want it to last for a lifetime if not more till eternity
i wanna be yours always and forever
dont want any other
i dont want riches or fame
all i want is you just like you want me all the same
i need you love..
and always remember in good times or in bad..
i'll still be here for you..
my love for you knows no bounds
and to you my heart will be forever bound how much i love you scares me at timescuz i nvr thought i'd ever fall this deepmy fears and tears at times get so boldi stumble in the coldbut through it all
i know you'd never let me fall
and always keep me warm
even if it all goes wrongwith you by my sidei know we'll pull through it with our hearts singing a song
from your laughter, to your jokes
to the way you sleep, to your hugs
i miss you my darling..
soo damn much..
if i could repeat wednesday night again..
i would do it a million times over..
jus for the sweet memories..
and to be able to fall asleep by your side again..
~i love you!~
goodnight world =)
i have the best bf ever..
and he's not only my bf..
but my best friend =D
please believe me again at 1:04 AM
Y
Friday, August 15, 2008
*srry abt this not so brief but still kinda brief entry
abt wad happened over the week so far..
but im tired and hungry and wanna go sleep summore
and chomp chomp on smth soon..hehehe*
Well..
here's tuesday..
it marked our 6mth anniversary together
6 mths of being with jason has taught me alot
and i wouldnt give wad we have for the world..
we have had our ups and downs
but no matter what i still love him with all my heart and soul
came late to class as usual..
bought macs breakfast for Mars and me
then slacked..
did work..
talked crap..
had fun..
and then it was time to meet cindy!
and oh..Mars lappie crashed..
(more abt that later)
So anyway, we met cindy..
She was late as usual!
hahaha
Mars came up with a suggestion to surprise Cindy
with tickets to the Dark Knight
instead of us spending cash on the Love Guru
which was a movie we didnt really wanna watch..
Both Mars and I already watched the movie..
But we felt it was soo damn good..
that we rather watch it again..
the movie was awesome!!!
the first time i watched it was with MY baby!
the joker was the BEST character!
he was sick, twisted..
and DAMN..
jus mindblowing!!
Anw, that day was AWESOME!
Wednesday!
Met my classmates
Fish(Jing Yee) and Daniel
and went to east coast!
Damn was it funnnn!!!!
And the food was good too!!
I really had a great time!
What was better was that our faci came by
with chocolate fondue!! =)
But what was the BEST was My baby love came down
and surprised me with a SUNFLOWER!
=)))
And then by nightfall..
ppl started to get high and drunk
and we played "I have never.."
and we leart alot about each other..
Gosh! it was funny the way some of my classmates
behaved when they were drunk..
and when i got high..
i think i talk too much..
or not at all..
and i dont make sense..hahaha
Anw, the pics still turned out well..hehe
My classmates and Jason sweetheart
warmed up real quick..
and anyway, it wasnt much of a surprise
since they have seen him quite a number of times
when he came to my class at sch..
But this was the first time we all joked together
and laughed together..
it really brought all of us closer..
Some had regrets abt what happened that night..
Be it them showing their true selves to others..
or sharing secrets that they didnt wanna tell..
But all i have to say is..
that its all ok..
cuz all that matters in the end
is that we all have learnt from our mistakes and moved on..
Spent the night taking a nap with my baby at the beach..
and with the frequent walks to the toilet
that was soo damn far away
and with the continued BBQ session
in the middle of the night at arnd 4 or 5 plus..
where my baby was helping to cook the food..
and napping again..
it was an eventful outing/bbq/get together..
whatever you wanna call it..
I jus had a GREAT TIME!
and to be honest..
I think this is BY FAR
the BEST outing I have had with a class before!
Went back the next day day..
tired and sleepy to Jason sweetie's place
i napped for awhile there..
met his mum for the 2nd time..
she reminds me of one of my friend's mum..
but a much nicer version..
anw, his mum is really sweet..
jason was still sleeping and she asked me to eat something
and even put aside some cash when i refused
in the end i had some fried fish soup which his mum bought
And ohhh!
i have to say jason's UBER cute when sleeping
when i tried waking him up..
he was soo sleepy..
that he muttered "huh? mummy?" with half opened eyes..
soo adorableeeee!! hahaha
then i tried waking him up again numerous other times
cuz i had to leave soon..
even though i didnt want to..
but he jus didnt wake up..
when i finally did manage to do that..
he was still soo sleepy and tired
that he nearly went back to sleep again..
lucky thing i said it was already 4 pm..
or else i'll bet he'll still continue sleeping..
and i'll be looking at my baby sleeping
and smiling away..
hMm..actually i think i did that..
hahaha.
Anw, my baby gave me a letter
and a 6th mthsary prezzie..
it was funny! and cute!
hahahaha.
i'll post a pic up soon so that you can see what it is =)
So here's the bad part to my almost perfect week..
MY lappie crashed!!!
jus like Mars one did on the last day of sch!
The stuuupiddd lappie cannot detect windows!
Fucking hell!
Am pissed off!
At the comp..
and AT myself
for not listening to Mars!
she told me to save my project at my email at least
so if the same thing happens to mine..
it wouldnt be so bad..
Whats worse is that..
I have sooo many pics in there of my friends
and my babyyyy!
and all my songs..and movies..
And another sad part is that
I did a 6th month anniversary post for Jason
but i did it on my microsoft word in my lappie
and now its all gone..
*sighs*
but even that aint so bad..
BUT BUT BUT..
MY PP PROJECT IS IN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!
I ALREADY DID LIKE soo mannnyyy pages of it and
MY reference copy is in it too
and so is all of my research!
And THE EFFING deadline is SEPT 9!
I REALLY hope that i wldnt have to be doing it on my bday too!
NOW i seriously would have to be up all day and night doing it..
Life jus sucks at times doesnt it?
Oh well..i've heard that for every 1 moment of happiness..
there's bound to be 10 moments of sadness..
but that shouldnt stop you from being happy..
=D
*to Jason,
Babyy!
thanks for everything..
I love you!!
you make me happyyy!!
and go weeeeeeee!
hehehe*
please believe me again at 11:22 AM
Y
Monday, August 11, 2008
Take your time - I can wait
for all the love I know will be mine
if you take your time
Take your time - though it's late
heart strings will sing like a string of twine
if you take your time
Take your time and take mine too
I have time to spend
take your time - go with me through
times 'til all time's end
please believe me again at 12:25 PM
Y
Sunday, August 10, 2008
i cant sleep.
i dont feel too good.
i'm shaking.
i didnt eat.
and all i wanna do now is bury myself with work.
or smth.
im restless.
i jus wanna breathe.
and feel ok.
come on..
feel better
feel better
feel better
its no use.
i'll jus have to forget feelings for nw.
but it only does happen
after ive had a long sleep without anyone waking me up..
screw it.
i'll jus live with it for nw.
tmr is a better day =)
i will jus have to get over 6-7 fucking hours
can do. can do. can do.
write asal's bday card nw.
then do abit of pp.
watch smth.
anything.
maybe OTH.
or GG.
yes, thats it. weeeee! *winks*
life's what you make of it.
even if you're down.
dont be. =)
please believe me again at 11:28 PM
i dont need this nw but oh well..
my tummy's growling..i wonder why..
oh shit! i jus rmbered i havnt eaten the whole entire day..
HAHAHAHA...
oh well..it doesnt make much of a diff..
i dont feel like eating anyway..
i cant wait for tmr..
gonna buy stuff for bbq with some of my classmates..
and we're all gonna get cheesecake
from andy sim..our material science faci..
weeeee!
exciting! =)
please believe me again at 8:43 PM
maybe its kinda both..
i shld feel guilt, hurt..i guess
maybe the want to wanna make things better
shld become stronger
but anyway..
i dont feel anything much..
i dunno why i feel so numb..
and i am not even getting myself to feel that way
*sighs*
maybe its a good thing to not feel for awhile..
like some one once said..
well more like typed..
every weekend is like a dead end..
and you know what..
just for once..
he could be right..
take it all as your fault..
you had your advice..
you KNEW better..
yet you did not consult..
nor did you heed your guts..
yet another price i'll pay..
Still at square 1 now..
and i cldnt care less..
cuz my mind's a mess..
and i do hate the unneccesary promises made..
i wish i was at sch rt nw..
rewind time..
and freeze..
laughter..fun..jokes..
pause..
and play it in repeat..
please believe me again at 1:50 AM
Y
Thursday, August 07, 2008
it sucks..
it sucks..
it jus plain sucks..
i miss feefa!
i need a dose of her real bad!
she listens and she's there
and she knows me well enough to tell me what i am like
and what to do and what to say
and even what i'm feeling right then
and helps make me feel better everytime =)
i need her! i soo need her!
but she's busy most of the time..
*sighs*
Friday!! come soon please!
Have got AN-TINA's lesson later on
and I so have no mood..
Just hope that she will treat us to something
And im broke broke broke..
Need to save up for tons of things!!
Have to go on a diet too..
Revise a new plan to save up cash..
Or i really shld kick up my plan up a notch!
either way it works =)
I have known this for a very long time..
but still..
*mental note 1*
dont be too much of a perfectionist
nothing can always be perfect all the time..
(even if its just in your eyes)
*mental note 2*
Dont get irritated and annoyed easily..
Endure more, Have more patience..
*mental note 3*
Express yourself more freely and better..
Dont keep it all in..
P.S-BE MORE SENSITIVE and NICER..
*mental note 4*
Sugar coat more =)
Be less sarcastic
*mental note 5*
When under stress keep your cool
and be less cranky..
Gosh! there's so much more..
argh! darn! forget it..
Basically i'm still back to square 1!
How lovely! =D
i better kick myself into bed..
and get someone to wake me up in the mornings..
Ahh! screw it! the wake up call system is easier said than done..
Motivation-Classmates & grades
*random thought*
I really shld pamper myself more..
havnt done that in a long long time.. =)
but then again..
my idea of pampering gets me even more broke..
so wad's the point?..
*sigh! sigh! double sigh!*
Now only one question remains..
Should i do that which i do not want to do?
But it means alot to him so i guess i should..
So i will..
Its easier said than done..
but i've been through worse..
If i have handled an entire night and half a day of weirdness..
I'm sure i can handle a few hours of it..
Still easier said than done..
Oh well..
It'll all get better in time *winks*
please believe me again at 12:44 AM
Y
Monday, August 04, 2008
I have soo much to say
but things i cant say here..
well hasnt it always been that way?
especially after you came into my life..
i guess not only this but alot has changed..
i'm not saying its a bad thing..
but its getting to me now..
i jus wish at times things were different..
or maybe back to the way they once were..
you could say i could always go back..
but i know that its too late for either of us to go back..
ive got to just stick it through till the end..
i jus hope i'll be happy and stay happy til then..
please believe me again at 1:07 AM