ME
riina
18
luvs hanging out wif her frens
N luvs chatting wif them online
N luvs talking to them on the phone
SHE luvs her frens to the core! =))
N can't live wifout them
Sometimes difficult to understand
Fun-loving
Easy-going
Temperamental too..
Pessimist on the regular..hehexz..
The more you know..The more you don't know
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Saturday, June 23, 2007
its been more than a month since i last blogged..
well loads of things have been happening
and i havnt got enuf time to update..
so..within this one mth i learnt loads of things
firstly jus like i thought things with YOU werent gonna last..
they didnt..u said u might come down..MIGHT..
but still when u didnt come down u dont even have the common courtesy to tell me a srry..
fine..u didnt have to tell me anything..jus at least reply to my sms when i drop u one??
u didnt either..
i hate u..i really do..but i cant help liking u too..
why did u have to give me such nice memories
when they wldnt be there for long anyway..
YOU make it hard for me to let go..
it gets even harder knowing that you're not all that honest with me..
all i need rt now..is jus 5 minutes of ur time..i hope u can at least give me that..
Did a few things that i would nvr have expected myself to do during the hols as well..
refering to drama camp..i was an ANGEL!! =)
hmM..wad else..
oh..yesS class chalet!! It was awesome..
i guess a couple of lies cant hurt rt..
or maybe it would hurt more than i knew..
Found out that a certain someone has a crush on me..someone had a crush on me at the camp
and it didnt last long..thank god..
But..jus after that..now this..
we're friends..come on!..real close friends and classmates..
and yet..jus because you have a crush on me and I have a thing for u
that u dont know about..everything's screwed up!
honestly is the best policy..but still some things left unsaid are better.
Now...I cant even face you or speak to you properly..
thinking about all the great times i had with you and how much u care about me
and how awkward things have gotten now..
makes me jus wanna cryy..
i dunno what to do now..and am at a lost..
AND even before i'm over any of these things..
someone else comes into my life tellin me they like me..
when we speak on the phone and in sch more often i get things like..
i love u and i want to be wif u..things which i have heard before..
time and time again..
the second i fall i get hurt..and i dont want to feel like this again..
yea..i'm cautious..maybe a lil too much..but what am i to do?..
it alwaes happens to me and i wish they wldnt happen again..
i jus hope he'll understand that..
I want things i cant have..
I am easily influenced..
I'm addictive..
I'm easy to fall for..
I'm difficult to forget..
I get high easy..
I like liquor more than beer..
I love my friends and I always want them to be happy..
I think about things related to myself more than my family..
I'm selfish..
I'm everything u might hate and more..
I'm rude..
I'm insecure..
I'm unsure about alot of things..
I'm complicated..
I think too much..
I'm just someone in the world..
I like attention once and awhile..
And I'm someone just like you..
I have feelings too..
what am i doing right now..I have absolutely no idea..
all i wish right now is that..I had YOU..
or that you at least want me as much as i want YOU..haizz..
During the hols, I stayed over at my aunt's place and took my lil cousin out..
shasha's her name..
Miss her like craZy..Love her like MaD! she's the lil sister i nvr had..
I thought she'll make me forget all my worries and problems..but no..
she didnt..BUT staying there reminded me of the importance of family..
I shall try to work things out with my dad
I will appreciate my dear mom more..
I shall bother more about my annoying bro..
In a 2 week holiday..
my mind..my heart..AND my priorities have taken a long roller coaster ride..
wish the ride had lasted longer so that i cld have more time to sort things out..
they will eventually i guess..but it'll be a mess before it gets better for everyone..
Never regret anything that has EVER made you smile.. =))
please believe me again at 8:01 PM