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Tuesday, July 31, 2007
Gosh!
it hurts soo much..
everything i do, everywhere i look..
i see u..
the memories they kill..
they make me tear for i know that its never going to be the same
and i can never have you again..
tears roll down my cheeks
and i am sad for i know that noone is going to be there to wipe them away..
but im still living..
i see you with her and oh dont you dare deny you arent happy
i see you smiling
and when you see the pain living in my eyes
you look away
you did this, so look at what have you done
dont look away
you made this choice
you ended things this way..
i thank you for everything..
even if its painful..
please believe me again at 9:37 AM
Y
Sunday, July 29, 2007
well what am i to say now?
everything is screwed up!
I never meant for anything to happen
never wanted to fall in love with you
but i ended up doing so
and we fought about so many things
you never did change
you still havnt
you dont noe me and you still dont try to
you say you love me but now you say you like another
well go for her
leave me..
you wanted brains..
i was it..
then you said i had the looks too
oh fuck u!
it doesnt help that you like another
i didnt break your heart
n now you have done that to mine
hope you are happy
dont regret your choice now
cuz i'll forget you now even if it kills me
i'll move on!
AND now dont you dare say you love me..
and that you lost your way
just walk away!
ASAL my love
thanks for everything!
SHANA love
thanks for caring!
BESTIE
thanks for checking in on me!
you made me become stronger! =))
Never again will I hear you
Never again will I miss you
Never again will I fall to you
Never again will I kiss you
Never again will I want to
Never again will I love you
I hope you'll be happy with her
I hope she's better than I ever was
AND dont ever look back
cuz it was you who choose to end it the way you did
I hope you'll be happy knowing that now i'll never be there EVER..
please believe me again at 2:51 PM
Y
Monday, July 09, 2007
ok..its 2am in the morning and i still cant sleep
i was supposed to be sleeping like what..2 hrs ago??
JUST wtf..
BUT..i just cant
I keep on thinking if he is still thinking about me..
and what the hell he is doing..
AND as for the other..
i am wondering why in the world does he not keep up to his words
i think too much thats what they all say
and it is when i am tired of thinking and feeling that i can finally sleep in peace
BUT todae..right now..
it feels different..
Kinda like..i'm missing something
or someone..
and i am not quite sure what or who is it..
and why..
I FEEL EMPTY.
RESTLESS.
I NEED TO SLEEP
I REALLY SHOULD
Guess i shall try to sleep again..
nitezZ all! =))
please believe me again at 2:02 AM
Y
Sunday, July 08, 2007
I do not know what I want anymore
I dont know what i'm doing either
I dont wanna know how i feel anymore
there's someone who loves me..he really does
I can tell cuz i can feel it..
then there's YOU..
the one who i think about from time to time
I wonder what you're doing and if you think about me too
i tell YOU..i miss you..
but i dont get it said back to me
u asked me why i didnt call
come on..tell me.. why didnt YOU call me??..
you say u are busy with stuff
but YOU never tell me what they are
Can't you trust me?
Do you even like me now?
Cuz..right now..i see it fading..
Yet you still asked me to come to your b'dae chalet
Shld i go or shld i not?
I guess i'll try using it as an opportunity
to catch up..get to know you..and maybe find the truth
I'LL TRY
With the other
he's alwaes there..loving me..
he hurts me with jus the slightest slip of words
i cry cuz of him
its then that i realise that i like him and i need him
but he scares me..
i dunno what he wants out of this..
i dunno what he wants from me..
i dunno where this is going with him..
he wants to hug me and never let me go..
BUT how long will he LAST?..
words close to his were said to me once..
i believed those words and the person who said it..
AND now i feel betrayed..
Love.
I felt it once.
Bliss.
Affection.
Pain.
Hurt.
Memories burn.
Words that never meant a thing.
Lies.
I wanted the truth.
Trust.
Never was there.
Understanding.
A joke.
Show ME its real.
I hate to FEEL.
love me.
hate me.
BUT you can't be me.
please believe me again at 9:07 PM