Love, Hate, which to choose?

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Sunday, October 07, 2007

"we are like two crazy little gals!"
yeah..what thasha said is true
we hope things are different
that things would go how we want them to

so reality crashes in is now over
it was a good experience and
everyone who were part of it
i thank you! =)

well things happen unexplained and unintentionally
but its alright
i know i can always count on my friends
to help me suppress those feelings
and forget those memories

now thinking about my friends..
its strange that i don't hang out with the drama peeps anymore
it kinda feels weird
but now with geetha in my class
shana,geetha,shalini,linisha,thasha,shamini,ambi are all the love!
yeah we had loads of misunderstandings
but with one day of skipping school and hanging out
we solved it all with a lil chitchat..=)
i miss my bestie
havnt spoken to her in ages
and i miss my MI babe!
its true what they say..
friends come and go
but there still will be those
who will always hold a special place in your heart!

hearts..they can be broken
and with a lil help can be mended again
it is hell difficult
but its only when you bleed
you feel alive
and someone once told me
it is only when you love a person
would you cry cuz of that person
its true what he said

now,
i cannot really be bothered
cuz i know myself too well
and i know that i'm not strong right now
but i find myself in the same position i was in before
it makes me happy yet making me sad..
it keeps me holding on..
to hope..
that things will be better..

so I went to aarathana
it was my first time and the best!
puvan is so cute!
he is so damn funny!
especially when he said he would move
so as to not be seated in between varman and i! LOL!
a certain someone said i looked "sooper"
thats all i needed! =)
it was all thanks to shana's red silky top!
but he was having a headache
and looked so tired by the end of the night..sadly..
dinesh another one
keeps on teasing me!
but its fun! LOL!
and..aNd..AND..
we won!!
the challenge throphy is OURS now baby!
i am soo happy!! =)

went to MACs of all places later
to celebrate indrani's b'dae
and our victory
then found out someone wants to get to know me??
why?!! arghh!! i hate this!
i know i sound irritated and pissed off by this..
but reall i'm not..
its just that i'm totally not interested
nor am i bothered..
oh well..i cant do anything can i..
just go with the flow?..*shrugs*

Later i would be going shopping for hari raya clothes..
Am gonna ask my mum if
i can invite my frens over for raya..=)
Hope she says yes!
then if possible..
(crosses fingers) i'll ask him to come as well!
then..(double crosses fingers) hope he'll come! =)

Its slowly fading away..
that feeling..
its like no longer a crush for me..
it feels like a little more than that at times
like we are more than just friends
and at other times it feels like its lesser than a crush
that we are nothing but just friends
i dont know how he feels about me..
and how i wish i knew..=)

please believe me again at 12:57 AM