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Thursday, January 11, 2007

So i havn't been updating for quite sometime..
Wad can i say??..been busy wif work..
Work tiring as usual..
Melvin still shakes hands wif me
N flirts wif me as usual..
N i still slack on my job
N think abt MELVIN alot!..as usual..LOL
N i still continue meeting interesting people
and exchanging numbers wif them n getting to noe them
n also their personal lifes as usual..

OH..n i found out the other dae that the STARBUCKS
eye candy is still working there..WHEEE..
N when i went to BK to get food the other night
when i was working..i didn't take off my nametag..
and as that person puts it..I was.."disturbed" yet again..

DAMN..i'll never forget this guy..
HE is robbing me of my sleep..
making me want to ALWAES look good when i go to work..
IS the LAST person i think abt when i sleep at night..
N the FIRST person i think abt when i get up in the morning..
I can't get him outta my mind..it's like i'm obsessed!..N i am NOT!
HIS eyes..HIS smile..HIS hand..HIS voice..HIS laughter..HIS everything..
jus leaves me soo VULNERABLE n tongue twisted..
N this butterflies in my stomach..breath caught in the throat feeling
i alwaes get when i see him..KILLS me..
IT NEEDS TO STOP..
I NOE!..
BUT i DON'T WANT IT TO..
i'm tired of this..*sighs*

MY feet is killing me..its hurting soo bad!..
N AMBHIGA n I are hitting things off..weirdly enuf..
she said "u're hot woman"..to me..which soo totally reminded me of SEXY mahes..
AND tt reminded me of my bestie..
she told me she'll try n visit me next week..N i really hope she does..
I need to SEE her..n show her around the place i work..
N have FUN wif her..n JUS BE..cuz i miss her that MUCH!..

I helped my paRtner get a job at I.E. ystdae afternoon..
but she's like sorta on probation..
I'm gonna do ALL that i can so that she'll be working across me..
I miss her like CRAZY!..
IF she finally works opposite me..
I'll have sumone who'll help me out no matter wad happens at work..
N i need her for that..
I JUS LUV MY FRENS!..

n a small lil teensy weensy fact is tt i shld learn to treat my parents better..
i never got that right when i was a lil kid..N till now..i still havn't got it right yet..

CHANGE..i guess thats wad life is all about..smth is alwaes being thrown at u..
N u alwaes have to DEAL..
that's LIFE..
ItS one hell of a roller coaster ride..filled wif laughter..tears..heart breaks..N fun..
N all those people you meet along teh way are there to help u..get by day by day..=))

please believe me again at 1:23 AM