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Thursday, January 18, 2007

Since i havn't updated in awhile here's EVERYTHING u need to noe! =)

15th January~~~~~~~~~~
well..JUS when u think everything is going ur way..
things jus get screwed up don't they..
on Mondae this week..
I sorta asked Melvin out since he was flirting wif me so much
N also since whenever he sorta asked me out
i wld change the topic of our conversation..
So on that dae Priya came down to see me..
She was soo sweet n tried giving me a surprise and all..
N the security guard was asking me..
why was i so happy..and jumping around..
DID i win a lottery or smth?..N i told him..
NO..my best fren is coming down..
N i was soo happy to see her..
Oh..and Wei Yun also came down after that..

So Melvin walked past me..and flirted as usual..
N then when he was walking back..i asked him..
wad he was doing this fri..i mean thursdae..(yess..i get tongue tied around him..LOL)
N then Ling from I.E. goes..
ah..ah..ah..flirting ah..right infront of me summore..
supposed to work and wad are u doing?..flirting ah..
N i was so embarassed..i smiled at Ling..
N Melvin looked at my face n smiled n then looked at Ling and smiled..
N then looked at me..and said..I dunno..I'll see first la..
n then he and I both walked away..TOTAL embarassment i tell u!
worst part is..after tt i heard he is attached!!!! N he still can FLIRT!
WAD AN ASS! CAN'T BE FAITHFUL??
Like wad Mahes says..these daes ah..ONE isn't enuf..
N these guys who KNOW that they are good looking
will flirt like nobody's business..jus cuz they noe they can..
ArGh! I HATE MELVIN for that!!!! SUCH AN ASSHOLE!
but such a small cute ass he has..ok..forgetting abt his ass
and his DAMN good looks..N hot attitude..
N his sexy hott gruff voice and the way he walks so suavely..
HE IS AN ASSHOLE! =))

16th January~~~~~~~~~~~~
N then on that dae i think..or was it tuesdae..
this security guard asked me for my number..
N wad da hell was i thinking??..I mean he is super friendly and all..
BUT still..i gave my number..so dumb of me..actually i was jus being nicee..
noone likes being rejected u noe..so yea..i gave it..
N i answered his second call..while pretending to be sleeping..
n then he was like srry and all n put down the phone..
I am SO NOT gonna answer his calls again!..jus EWWWW..

17th January~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
N then ystdae..i was like talking to michelle..
who is my paRtner..AMANDA's fren!
she works at I.E. so we talked and all..
N i was going on and on and on abt Melvin..
I have a SERIOUS crush on tt guy man..
And i was telling her who are all the guys who flirt wif me at work..
I told her..this cleaner flirts wif me..
and that security guard also likes me..
and that Melvin also flirts wif me..
and some guy from cargo i think also flirts wif me..
and the list goes on and on..
N she was like telling me..
whoa..u can attract guys from cleaners to security guards
to even salesmen to even customers..
And she told me..u attract guys who are mostly indians and malays..
and some mixed ones..like Melvin who is apparently..
punjabi mixed chinese..HOT COMBO!!!!
Aniwaes..i told michelle that it was difficult to attract chinese guys
who work here..but i can try sumtime..N we had a huge laugh abt it..
We were like slacking so much that dae..

Aniwae..
Melvin and Isacc(who has this paul two hill hairstyleand is SOO DAMN TALL)
and some other guy who i later found out his name is Anthony..
were all standing at the counter next to Melvin's counter
and when i turned and saw them..ALL their eyes were on me
AND they stopped TALKING..and started smiling at me..
CREEPY i tell U!..like as though they were talking ABT ME like that..
After tt happened for abt three times..
that Anthony guy who i have only smiled at
and still havn't even said hello to him b4..asked me out for todae..
N i told him..i'm gg out wif my frens..maybe swimming or gym or shopping..
i dunno yet..N he told me where he was staying n he asked me where i stayed..
N then he was telling me he wasn't dg anything todae..N told to sms him sumtime
if i was ever near bugis..N i was like..yea..n looked away..
N he asked me for my number..N i didn't know wad to do..N gave it..
N after keying in my hp number into his hp..he was like..ur name??
N i was like thinking..wad an ass..asked me out even b4 knowing my NAME..
N then he smsed me saying this is my number afterwards..
I think he is malay mixed chinese..he is kinda cute la..thats why i gave my number..
but i told him not to call me so much..N he said no prob..
Well one thing IS for SURE..i am NEVER going out wif HIM..EVER!
----Oh..and another thing..my workplace is haunted..some ppl got possesed,,spooky!!!..actually it was VEYR SCARY!!!..*tears*------

All the wrong ppl are asking for my number..
I want Melvin to ask for my number...
But he is jus fooling around..haish..
SO i guess I have got to fool around too..N have fun..
the good thing is I don't have a boyfren..
So its ok for me to flirt..LOL..but he has to stop it..
I guess we'll see how things go tmr..
when i see Melvin and also maybe a few ppl i dun wanna see
who have my number..LOL..

By the time i leave the place where i work..
I think i would excel in flirting..LOL..

Aniwaes..I saw Dhinesh and Karthik ystdae..
So UNEXPECTEDLY on my way to work..
omG! i really miss them..especially Karthik..
never see him for SO LONG
N he was like soo shocked on that dae when he saw me..
cuz he didn't see me for so long
N also cuz he thought i looked damn nicee..
It was soo sad that i cldn't stay and talk to them..
cuz i was alrd late for work..so i had to go..

To sumone..:

Its true that you haven't been talkin to me properly..
N its true that maybe you are alwaes the last to noe wad went on at work..
N its True that you havn't been able to go out wif me..
N yea..our phone conversations are getting shorter..
N u do have to rush off all the time..thats true too..
Its true that maybe u're not alwaes there when i'm in deep shitt..
so u can't help..
N yea..u do seem disconnected wif my life..
N i noe u are srry abt all these and MORE..

I noe u are really srry abt all the things u can't do for me..

like i can do for u..N i'm telling u its ok..cuz i understand..

Maybe u dun show it as much as u used to..

But don't u ever EVER feel that u aren't a good best friend to me..

cuz as far as things go..I noe that u luv me..N u'll alwaes be there for ME..

N i luv U! Nomatter wad..U noe i'll alwaes LOVE U!
So I'm just letting u noe..that its ok..Alright??

18th January~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Ok..continueing..
todae..i went to the gym and had a tiring but good time..
ate kway teow and drank fruit juice..
Ate a honey stick..N drank a milkshake..
N i went to check out a few bags
perfumes and ALSO WENTWORTH MILLER..
I checked out the price to rent out the whole of season of PRISON BREAK!
N it ONLY cost 16.50..so i think i'll be borrowing it tmr afternoon after work!
CAN'T WAIT! HE'S SOO HOT!!!

And todae after going out i came back home
and rested for awhile and then when online..
I chatted wif a few ppl..
N whoa! i got BLOWN away wif the TRUTH..
sumone told me sumthing..i DID not EXPECT to hear AT ALL!
I mean in truth..I went thru the same..
but i never said a thing abt it..So noone knew..
only my closeset of closest frens knew..
N then I started working..N Melvin served as a huge distraction..
N now..I've a crush on Melvin..so the other feeling is all forgotten..
like jus a faded memory..which i do not wish to bring alive..
for there is a heart so pure and true and which is faithful
and unwavering of its trust and love..that i cannot do anything..
but stay silent..so i did..N now..this happens..N now..i am confused..
I dunno wad to do..But i shall jus stay silent and see where this goes..

Till another dae..With another disaster..
Wif some Truths..And some Lies..N Maybe wif a lil' Hope..
C ya!
=))))

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