Love, Hate, which to choose?

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Saturday, December 09, 2006

Work on FRIDAE was damn damn tiring..
Cuz i actually got up in the morning for once..
cuz someone asked me to meet up..but then in the end cldn't make it..
But since i was alrd up and about i decided to go n get some stuff done..

Got home in the afternoon n rushed to work..lucky it was only Eugene's shift..
He's nicee n funny n all tt..N i'd never have guessed that he was 21 ++ years old!
He looks soo young like he's 18 or 19 or smth..
Some ppl call it a blessing to look young n others call it a curse..
Well if they look at it in the long run..ITS A BLESSING!
N everyone there thought i was 17 or smth..when i'm 16..hahaxz
They all feel that I'm soo young to work..LOL

BUt i need the MoNeY!!!
Need to get b'dae presents n go SHOPPING!!!!

Aniwaes met this other women..she's real nicee N her name susanna
We'll get along pretty well i guess..cuz we've been doing jus tt..=))

N todae I got up at like 12pm n slept again n woke up AT 5pm!!!!!
LOL..

Aniwaes..i chatted wif my bestie last nite
N its been soo LONG since we talked like tt..
I miss her..i want to see her!
N i miss all my other frens too..but not as much as i miss my bestie!
I LUV YA GAL! muacks! =))

N jus now i jus realised that i can actually relate to some ppl..
Maybe cuz we're sorta going thru the same thing..WHO NOES?

Okay life isn't easy..so let's look at it this way..

i'm sometimes shattered
never open
i guess that nth matters
when you're broken..

frens enter ur life..they tell u that they care
but how do u noe tt they really do?
when there's no reason to..they don't have to..
yet they say they do n wanna noe wad's wrong..
BUT they never find the time to make u tell them..

they never understand that its difficult to allow ppl
into a place where only a few are entitled to enter..
these few never break your heart n are there for u
thru thick or thin
to make it there..takes time,effort n patience N lots of love
only these ppl noe the real U..

All the rest,see a facade of u..
Where everything SEEMS perfect
But that's not true
Sometimes what you see is not alwaes wad you get

Tonite, I see that there's no light at the end of the tunnel
Jus a bridge that i gotta burn
N wif it goes all ties severed
ME left torn n bleeding wif nowhere to turn

I take cover
from all emotions i feel
It hurts soo bad
I wanna cry feeling a lil less of power
but then we rather die
wifout uttering a single word
I wanna slip away
into a place where only u lie
A sanctuary

To find a place that doesn't last
I run n hide
taking comfort in words spoken
yet i'm afraid to trust the unwritten
that which disappears like the tide
I run from the past
or at least thats what i call it to be
cuz i wish it so much to be so..see..

my whole life's slowly
started, becoming a facade, brutal
A window of a hse where the glass
is stained wif a thick coat of denial
peer into that which is crass
and nothing you'll see clearly

but those who truly care
would see tears, blood n fear
now do u dare
delve into which makes me tear??

Don't Bother
cuz I won't die of this deception
I promise you won't ever see me cry
N plz don't feel sorry
its just a situation
N it's not like i'll wither either.

N now here i am
GONE!

I jus wish someone wld ask me this very qn
"dil mein hai kya kuchh toh bata"

N tell me this very phrase
"kyon hai bhala khud se khafa"

I wldn't be able to answer them..
but its alwaes nice to know someone cares..

N i wish that i could tell sumone this
"bina tere na ek pal ho na bin tere kabhi kal ho"

but there's noone for me to say it to..

MERI ADHURI KAHAANI..=)))

*~thru it all i'll smile~*

please believe me again at 8:00 PM