Love, Hate, which to choose?

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Monday, December 11, 2006

Well so..I did go to Macs N I did go to the bank..
But i didn't go to the library or borrow any movies todae cuz it was raining
N i was jus..well..PLAIN LAZY! LOL

N i sat on the couch todae N watched skeleton key..
It's kinda nicee..
But i dunno why..
I wanna see a really gory movie rt now..
like urban legend: final cut OR
final destination 3 (m18) OR
amityvale horror (m18) OR
maybe a movie like sin city(R21)
wldn't be so bad either,,
I dunno why but rt now i have a taste for BLOOD!
LOL
ok..that sounded wrong on SOO many levels!
I sound like a VAMPIRE or smth..
but seriously I wanna watch a really gory movie rt now..
even though I noe that after watching it..
I'd probably puke up every food i eat whenever I think abt that movie
N that I'll have nightmares..BUT i cldn't CARE less!
okay..I think i have the movie SAW in my comp..HmM..maybe i cld watch that..
but..BUT i'm eating rt now..LOL

Aniwaes..thinking abt wad happened at the bank todae i realised that
when it comes to guys and me..I can get by anything..
It's sorta a blessing N kinda a curse too!
Well I absolutely hate it..N it sux..
N i jus dun wish to go into detail abt it all..
aRgh! it just annoys me!
I mean..even when I'm working it happens??
I gotta get a break from it ALL!

Aniwaes..guess that shopping is posponed till wednesdae..
I better get some new clothes..
I really really need them..N soon!

okay..I'm still bored if not I wldn't be here in the first place..
N yes..blog surfing has turned out to be boring now N so is frenster..
frenster is addictive but still..bleah! It's boring!
N the new profile thingy..wad's up wif that?!
I hate it!

I was jus listening to Rihanna's S.O.S song..
N it soo relates to me..
I mean really..
Somebody needs to help me!
N get me out of this rut..
(if u understand wad the hell is gg on wif me that is...)

N on the way to the bank todae..I sorta realised all the things I missed out on..
FOR NOW..
I lost contact wif kovardhini..as in I lost her number..N now..haizz..
I wanna call her..I miss her..
I miss all the times we had at our karate class

I mean..we said we'd go back after our exams..
N i dun wanna go back there..cuz of all the memories it brings me..
BUT YET i wanna go there CUZ of all the memories it brings me..
I had my first humoungous crush on this guy over there..
I wanna see him again..N if he's there i wanna be sick or hurt really badly so that
he can tend to me again..hehexz..LOL
okok..that was stupid..I jus wanna see him n see how he's doing..
I'm soo over him..

N HADI! omg! he IS one ASSHOLE! I wanna kick his ass AGAIN!
I rmb him calling me slow n so he didn't wanna spar/fight wif me
when we were training..N that got me soo angry..
BOY..u had to see us man..I was out to kill..LOL

N i still rmb ALI! OmG! He is like jus soo freaking NICEE!
i rmb us gals fighting over him cuz we didn't wanna spar wif a difficult guy..LOL
but when our sen sei was like telling us that we'll have to spar wif all three guys..
We gals were like damn!
N so i let this gal spar wif ALI first..i forgot that gals name..
N my stupid teacher..ok i gotta give respect to her..so..
correction..
N my teacher(LOL) was like kept on saying that I'm a tough gal to spar wif..
N she was telling those guys to watch out..N i was like soo embarassed plz..
Cuz i wasn't that good at sparring N besides I hated it..
cuz i'm afraid to hurt my frens..
as in physically..N i hate to do that..I don't ever wanna hurt them..
N that BLOODY ASSHOLE HADI! can still call me slow cuz of that..
I really showed him that dae..LOL
N now whenever he's supposed to partner me..he's like huhhh..
N has NO EXCUSES..
jus that he'll get a few punches n kicks from me..LOL

Aniwaes..I still rmb sparring wif that boy..i dunno wad his name..
actually noone knew it..cuz he was new in our class..
N he's from..dunno where..I can't rmb..LOL
well..aniwae..Me n he sparred..N omG! it was soo difficult!
he sorta slapped me on my face by accident n said sorry..LOL
i jus had to laugh it off n continued sparring N then when i tried to kick him..
Wad da hell was tt?! he took my leg N put it over his head
N made me go jumping around..LOL
Actually i'm supposed to do some kinda counter attack at this time..
but being a gal..typical..i jus screamed n laughed all the same time..
while tryna keep my balance..
It was a good fight..
I have had soo much fun there..

N ALL those memories of that crush i had..*sighs*
REMINISING!
THANK GOD! i never once had to fight him..
N whenever i was supposed to..I alwaes found a way around it..
cuz having a crush on him..I knew i would do stupid things..LOL
but he's real nicee..
I wonder if he'd already gone for his N.S.
Well I wanna go back to those karate classes..
To those endless fun n memorable times!

I MISS MY OLD LIFE!

N i want a change!
N i've got it..but yet I don't feel complete..
which sux..
but hey..who cares abt it anyway..
I'll jus have to wait n see what tmr brings for me..

Oh wait..i alrd noe wad it brings..WORK!
*sighs*

LOL..well guess i'm off yet AGAIN! =)))

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