Love, Hate, which to choose?

Y
Sunday, December 24, 2006

WELL..WELL..WELL..
Reached home at 8 todae
when i was supposed to be back at 5.30pm..LOL

ME N SEXY MAHES went out todae!
WENT to BUGIS!
ATE at DELIFRANCE!
both of us had a craving for delifrance..LOL
N omG! we had TO THINK how to eat
our sandwhich cuz it was humongous..hahaxz
N there was a kid there ANNOYING US! LOL..

AFTER that..we went to BUGIS STREET..
got a really nicee HALTER DRESS!
SEXY was soo niceee tryna get the
cost of the dress reduced from 50 bucks to 40 bucks..LOL
in the END..paid 42 bucks for it..
SEXY not bad at discounting afterall ah...LOL

WHEN i tried on the dress..
u shld SEE sexy's FACE!
LOL..she was like OMG OMG OMG!
NICEEEE!!!
then..SHE was like..OMG! you are damn thin la..
N then the next second she looked away..
and said I SOO NEED TO DIET! LOL
WE also bought EARRINGS!!!! =))

LATER went to VIVO!
so that i cld see MELVIN!!! =)
Supposed to be there at 4.30 to see him..
but reached there at 5.30..
N the DAMN TANGS was CLOSED!
so no MELVIN for CHRISTMAS EVE..
SOBS!!!! SOO SADD!!!!

Newaes..got kinda lost in VIVO..
tryna find COFFEBEAN..
in the end we went to starbucks..
N got a mocha frappacino..
I wanted OREO CHEESECAKE
but it was ALL SOLD OUT..sobs..
OhH..then I showed MAHES
this really cute guy who works there..
N she was totally CRUSHING on him..LOL
SHE also AGREED that i've got good taste!
LOL..i'm HAPPY!!! whEeE! =)

LAUGHTER LAUGHTER N MORE LAUGHTER!!!!
BTW..we even SNORTED! LOL

I LIKED MY CHRISTMAS EVE ALOT ALOT!!!!

please believe me again at 11:32 PM

Y
Saturday, December 23, 2006

TODAE..i had to get to work earlier than 5pm..
So i got there around 3.30pm N slacked
N let DANIEL do all the work..
Kinda felt bad..but i was honestly..LAZY..LOL

WAD made my dae was that LING was there..
N all the TANGS staff people..ARE all in the festive mood..
EXCEPT for some..like LING..
LING n I talked todae..
She is really nicee..
It seems she was married n then she divorced n all that
THE rest of HER story..I'd luv to say it..
But i rather keep it private..

WE ate CHOCOLATE while working todae..LOL..
ACTUALLY she got the chocolate..from her fren
N she shared it wif me..
N it was also Eugene's B'dae..
I wished him soo gawdamned late..
but still its smth..
N LING got him a beautiful ring..
SO SWEET! =))
LING also accompanied me for my break..
N she waved byye at MELVIN..
N WTFH was i dg??@!
I DID the same too..
N HE WAVED BACK N NODDED N SMILED AT ME/US..
while speaking to a customer..

okok..back to LING..
SHe got me a DRINK(jus coke)..
from the vending machine at the staff lounge
N then we went out of the staff entrance..
WHERE she smoked a marlboro cigarette..
which i really liked the smell of..LOL..
ACTUALLY i think thats the only brand of
cigarette i like the smell of..
N she gave me this biscuit she got from M'sia..
LING IS SO SWEET..

WE TALKED about BEYONCE..N J.LO
then we started talking abt hot celeb bods..
N she was like "honey..they got it made..
like me.."N she told me to touch her ass..
ITS MADE OF SILICON actually..
N its firm like wad she said it was..
OH GAWD..wad am i talking..
that whole thing tt happened..
was jus WEIRD!
LOL

After that she left..N i went back into TANGS..
N goodness..I caught MELVIN having seen a glimpse of me..
N he WANTED to see if it was really me..
I cldn't take it any longer..I jus turned to his store's direction..
N he smiled at me..AGAIN! hehexz..

OK..i counted..WE smiled at each other about 10 times todae..
on the 5th time he said hello to me..
The second time he said hello..
He also asked my name..N i told him wad it was..
N he was like wad..srry..
N i said it again..N this time he also looked at my nametag..
then he was like..oh..ok..
N i asked him..wads urs??..(even tho i alrd knew it)..LOL
He told me my name's MELVIN..nicee to meet u..
he walked away..N i DIED!
CLD NOT BREATHE!

AFTER tt..i caught him looking at me THRICE
from the corner of my eye..
OH GAWD..its soo difficult to PRETEND!
I NEED TO TAKE THIS FURTHER..
than jus noeing each others' names..
I WANT TO NOE HIM!

OK..ITS OFFICIAL!
I'VE LOST IT..
I WANT MY SANITY BACK..
LOL

okok..another thing that happened todae was..
another ex-classmate/schoolmate is also working at TANGS
but she's on the SECOND floor..
NAME is ZHOUHUA..
at least i noe i ain't alone anymore..
WTFH am i talking..
I'm not alone at all..
I've got LING N EUGENE N MELVIN N cuties n hotties..

okok..i gotta stop here..
WHY havn't i worked b4??
ITS SOO FUNN! LOL
BUT I MISS MY SEXIES ALOT ALOT! =))

please believe me again at 2:16 AM

Y
Wednesday, December 20, 2006

Had work todae..N todae was jus another awesome dae!
The second i was about to step into TANGS using teh staff entrance..
I saw the HOTTIE wif HERU'S EYES! LOL..and..
Eugene covered for me todae since i was late..
N when I got there N he left..
Ling told me he was sick..
I wanted to msg him..but i guess i forgot..
Newaes..todae not much people were at my store..

So i was pretty much dead bored
but i had alot of other things to do
like changing the price tags
n updating the storeroom stock list
but i decided to jus update the storeroom stock list..
cuz i was too lazy..LOL
Tmr Daniel is working..I noe he'll do up the price tags..LOL

While working I got an sms from my galfren..
N gawd was she soo upset..i wanted to go n call her..
but then i realised i cldn't

Oh..OH..LING was telling me that
this guy is quite good looking n his eyes are like the cats..
N i was thinking she was refering to the hottie wif HERU's eyes..
But then i wasn't sure..N LING was telling me
to wait for him to come back...N so we did..
Then he didn't come back..So i continued dg my own things..
N LING left cuz her shift ended

A few mins later i was near the front of the shop..
WHEN..that hottie wif HERU's eyes came n walked past me..
N oH my gAwD! HE looked at me n then
instead of looking away..he held my gaze n smiled at me
N said HELLO! to me..
I WANTED TO DIE!
HIS EYES! KILLER!
Newaes gawd noes how..but
i managed to reply back wif a smile n a HI!

Then awhile later the damn cleaner saw me n smiled..
HE spiked his hair back again..
he looks better wif spiked up hair..
the last time i saw him..his hair wasn't spiked
which made tt guy look weird..
NEWAES who cares abt tt damned cleaner!

After that i saw this lady who i saw a few daes ago
when i was working..N she was at time telling me
her feet were aching..N todae since i was wearing
a short sleeved top..she asked me if i was cold..
N like DUH! i was freezing N she was telling me
to next time wear smth wif longer sleeves
or bring a jacket n i told her i did..
N she asked my name n all
interesting lady..

After work I met her at the harbourfront mrt station
N she was like telling me abt work
N also her terrible 'friends' who are actually her colleages
N then I got to find out that HOTTIE wif HERU's EYES NAME!
HIS name is MELVIN! HE's A HINDUSTANI!
N according to her he's young..MEANING he's 23???
WHO CARES! he's A HOTTIE!
N which soo MEANS i gotta go learn more HINDI!!! LOL

MELVIN saw me thrice toda(yeS..I cOUnTED) N SMILED!
N he ALSO said HELLO to me the first time he saw me
N HI to me the second time he saw me..
The thrid time he saw me i was pretty far away from him
Cuz i was hanging up some clothes a customer was looking at..
GAWD! MELVIN is hott..LOL

okok..Newaes at 8.00 I went for my break
N awaited the mess of clothes N also any missing clothes
But instead I saw this gal working at TANGS
who is extremly nicee at the store
together wif this malay guy..
who is rather cute..

He wanted to get a top for his galfren or fiancee or wife or smth..
who is working at NUH in the reserach department..
he wanted it to be for work..but not soo boring
N yet feminine N elegant..

He was like saying that she is sumwhat my size
but alil taller..like 166cm like that and that she was fair..
Wif all these he asked for our help in finding for that girl a nice top
which he wanted to present to her..
N it seems he needed it todae cuz they are all going M'sia tmr..
N the gal is working here for abt a yr..N all that..

So we showed him a few tops..N i even tried on
like two of the tops he selected to show him how it'll look
One was this purple satin one
N he was like telling me that it looks real good on me..
He even asked me if i do get free things around here..
Probably so that i can get the top..LOL
I also tried on this white sleeveless top..
Which he also said looked good..
*gEtTing ComPLiMeNts LiKe tHaT sUrE as HeLL fEeLs gOOd! LOL*

In the end he choose the purple satin top..
oh..the gal is btw 22 N when i mentioned i am 16..
we started talking abt prelims N Os and all that
N he wished me good luck for my results..
N told me to get into VJ-according to him its very fun-
if i can..(thats a joke I dun even think i can make it..)
N then b4 he left he looked for me at store
n thanked me for the help n left..

N the whole entire dae there wasn't any sales at my store..
So i was kinda bumped..cuz i dun like to call saying
"srry we didn't sell anything todae.."
SO..i was like kinda hoping that sumone wld get smth..
and someone DID!
at 9.55pm..kinda late..but still..YAY!

BASICALLY..it was a good dae at work..
N i had tonns of eye candy

Now..i am off to continue watching
KABHI ALVIDA NAA KEHNA
N also EAT EAT EAT!
I am soo getting fatter..but who cares..LOL
=))))))))))))))))))))))

please believe me again at 11:23 PM

Y
Tuesday, December 19, 2006

So..todae i went out wif Nares..
since he asked me out to a movie..
Watched the movie called THE HOLIDAY!
N it was DAMN NICE!

Also bought a new pair of black pants for work..
But it has no pockets..
Now..I'm jus wondering where in earth or rather
how on earth am i gonna keep my hp close to me at all times!
haizz..

N also borrwed the movie Vallavan..
N MR n MRS SMITH
N CRY_WOLF
N also Kabhi Alvida Naa Kehna

I watched them all except for the hindi one..
which i heard is damn nicee!

N rt now my head hurts N i jus feel ALL high N drunk! LOL

oH..oH..i also got something for sumone i luv..
but i jus hope that person likes it..
Its supposed to be smth special..but we'll see..

BTW..on the way to teh movies i met my classmate
SER HUI..I got to catch up on wad she is dg now..
N it seems she is working at LEVIS..
getting 5 bucks an hr like me
BUT it seems the amt of work they hav to do it alot..
WHILE mine is ABSOLUTELY slack! LOL

Well thats abt it..another maybe boring dae in my life..
N i've got work tmr..haizz..
AM dreading it..
but maybe i might look forward to it..
if Eugene is there..cuz then i can TAUNT him..LOL..

Okies..me off to my dreamland..
wHoOtz!

please believe me again at 11:53 PM

Y
Monday, December 18, 2006

Todae was rather shittified from the morning itself..
i had to cancel the outing wif MAHES
to go out wif my MOTHER..
jus cuz she didn't wanna go out alone..*sighs*
SO i did..to TAMPANIES MALL
n wanted to shop..but didn't..
she went to see her friend..
at her friend's hse..
N the dog there.. oh my goodness!
SOO CUTE!!! It came barking at me..
but i wasn't scared..N then it sniffed me..
n walked away to do the same to my mum
N my mother was running around the hse! LOL
funny! she was soo scared!
Aniwaes..I patted the dog n all..n it even came n sat next to me..
N it even lied down on my bag..
Its actually a boy..N its name is SABIR..
CUTE DOGGY..N guess wad..its really jus a puppy still..LOL.

the rest of the day was rather shittified wif me being
utterly rude to my mother..N miserable..
Haizz..LIFE SUX la..
But nonetheless my BESTIIE cheered me up! whEEE!

But yestdae was SOO SOO FUN!
MY HAPPIEST DAE ALIVE!

yestdae i had work in the morning..
I got up early..but since i had to prepare myself
for the wedding i had to attend tt night..i ended up being late
ALSO thx to the stupid weather..
I got there EVEN later than USUAL!

I reached at 11.20!
N i entered by the front instead of using the staff entrance! LOL
then..it so happened that that lady who alwaes calls me honey was there..
it was nice talking to her..

N as for the cleaner..i ignored him the entire time n so wad did he give me??
ATTITUDE! asshole la..Then he finally decided to smile at me
when i went to the cashier to make a quick phonecall..
N this time i jus looked at him n walked right past him..
I DUN GIVE A DAMN!
I treated him like a wall! N i can do it AGAIN!

N then there was this guy i don't even noe who he is la..
but he looks pretty young..
but looks can be deceiving..
this goes to especially ALL the people working there..
Aniwaes..he is rather CUTE!
N he is malay..but aniwaes i was jus being a good salesgal
on tt dae dunno why..i was smiling..
N he saw me N smiled BACK n said HELLO to me..
omG! i tell u i so didn't expect that..
when i said hi to him back..my voice was like soo soft la..

Oh..then a lil while later..
I was like wondering where that guy from that belt shop had gone to..
cuz he's rather hottt..
N i usually see him at the belt counter wif his back facing me..
thru those holes of the dividers of the shop..
Then i saw that there was this new guy there..
SOO SAD..
n then i stood infront of the shop while..
that lady who alwaes calls me honey went to makan..
N when i turned around..I SAW HIM!!!!
he was like walkin soo quickly..but then..
HE STILL looked at me N SMILED!

Oh..his eYes..jus took my breath away..
PRIYA..N MAHES! THE REASON is CUZ his EyEs lOoked LIKE HERU'S!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
I JUS DIED THERE THE NEXT SECOND!

I quickly went into the shop n looked at the clothes there,,
while tryna catch my breath..LOL

I dunno wad da hell he is..but i think he is malay..
and i bet he speaks real good english..
N his eyebrow is a bit weird..like one eyebrow is smth wrong..
there's like this line thru it where there's no hair..
kinda like piper's from charmed u noe...
BUT who cares! HE IS STILL HOTT!!!

N then LING came in for work..
the transexual women's name is crystal ling..
She was soo nicee!
She helped me sell a skirt..N..when the customer needed alterations done..
SHE helped me AGAIN!
n she told me that EUGENE's b'dae is coming up!
which means i so need to wish him on da 22nd!
It seems LING n EUGENE are gonna go out to DINNER!
N LING wad was she dg la..
while walking past me she gave me a flying kiss..
GAWD WEIRD!
but i jus smiled it off..

OH n another thing..
the shop where the blondes in black are working is called
NARSICO RODRIGUEZ
N i SAW THEM on tt dae too!
HOTTIES!

OH..here's a VERY funnY story for u guys..
LING told me that on the way to work..
she was in the mrt train..
N this gal..who according to her is very fat and ugly n SHE isn't lying..LOL
it seems tt gal n her fren were in the train standing opposite her..
N the fat n ugly indian(did i mention this) anyways..indian gal
was telling to her fren.."omba".."omba"..
(actually its supposed to be "ombadhu"-no.9 in tamil meaning gay..)
n pointing to LING's apple..
LING who understands tamil went up to the gal
N asked her..were u talking abt me??
the gal was like no..no..srry..
Then LING was soo pissed N said..
I'M NOT STUPID OK..I noe u were talking abt me..
N you're so fat and ugly..I feel srry for u..
N LING jus WALKED AWAY!

TOTALLY BITCHIFIED!
BUT SOO TOTALLY HOTT!
I MEAN SHE STOOD UP FOR HERSELF!
N really its true..LING is pretty hott! hehexz..

Oh..ON that dae LING..talked to this guy while the guy walked past her
N she turned to me n said.."thats my bollywood star!"
then LING's 'bollywood star' looked at me, smiled n was on his way..
N then LING talked to another guy who walked past her..
LING was like telling him.."HEY I'M EVERY GUY'S DREAM N DESIRE OK!"
when i heard her say that i wanted to laugh!
cuz its soo true! but..its SOO IRONIC! since she is actually a guy herself..LOL
N she turned to me and said that's my puppy!

When she said that I got reminded of KARTHIK..cuz he alwaes calls me that..
Gosh..why did she have to remind me??
ANIWAES..tt guy was very cutee!
he did this puppy impersonation thingy..very cutee n funny!

I DO NOT rmb..having so MUCH FUN N LAUGHTER IN ONE DAE at work!

Oh..these daes i actually go for my break N surprise SURPRISE!
I eat ALONE!
I GO TO GET MY FOOD N eat ALONE at the STAFF LOUNGE..
BUT i find it to be ok..

AND! on that dae...the security guard who never smiles at me..smiled at me..

And I SOLD 3 items on tt DAE! which is quite ALOT since everything is SOO EX!

At 4.55 i got a call from Eugene..he told me that he was gonna be 10 mins late..
cuz there was some traffic jam..
N he told me to leave at 5 when my shift is over but he told me to help him
by calling Dylan for him n to tell him that he has alrd reached there n i am leaving

N i really was planning to leave at 5 but then a customer wanted to try on smth..
SO i had to wait..
then after she was done..I was about to leave again..when sumone said
"Excuse me..wads a size 4?"
N i was like DAMN..have to help them..
N then after that they decided to try on those clothes..
It was 5.10 by then..so i quickly made that phone call to Dylan
and then when i was about to grab my bag..
AGAIN! summore customers needed my help..

N sum ppl think i work at Martino Pink..
HELLO PPL! I DO NOT! NVM..

ANIWAES..i was finally done and ready to leave by 5.30..
but he still wasn't there yet..
N i was getting VERY late for the wedding!
N since i tot it was alrd 5.30..I shall wait for him..
Also since alot more people were coming into the shop..
..I DID..

N Eugene FINALLY got there at 5.35 and was like SHOOING ME AWAY!
LOL
he was like.."wad are u dg here..I tot u alrd left..Oh god i'm soo srry..
jus go..OMG! JUS GO!.." LOL..funny la he..

N so i grabbed my things n told him i really have to rush off now
cuz i was late for this wedding thing..
N tt there's alot of things he needs to take note of..
and he was like ok ok..jus go..GO..plz..GO..LOL

SO i left..N i left him feeling shitty..
I feel so bad for dg that..but i really didn't mean to..

WORSE part was that..I was literally running out of TANGS..
N i ran past that cute malay boy who said hello to me in the morning..
When I ran past him..I dunno wad came over me..
But i jus said BYEE! LOL
N he said it back too! hahaxz..

NEWAES i rushed to the WEDDING!
N i have to say..I got alot of..
"if you don't mind me asking..wad's ur race/wad are u?"
N loads of " who is she?"

The waiters there were like giving me that LOOK..
(the look which said u here all alone..awee)
when i was standing all ALONE..cuz i was supposed to be in tt room..
cuz that was where all the entertainment is gonna be at..
DINNER was at another table..
in another room..
ACTUALLY it wasn't even supposed to be like that..
the whole wedding reception was supposed to BE
MUCH MORE BETTER..it was supposed to be in the open at the poolside!
but it was raining..SADLY!
so yea..everything was indoors..thus the arrangement..
ANIWAES..AMRIT was the MC together wif her BRO's FRIEND!
she looked real pretty AS USUAL!
then her three cousins from M'sia were there..
I saw them at AMRIT's hse the other dae..
N this time i saw them at the reception..
they were telling me which table i was sitting at..
N they all were like HEYY!!! when i got there
N one of the cousins were like..
OMG! U LOOK SOO DIFFERENT! U LOOK SOO PRETTY!
N I WAS LIKE no la..
cuz they really looked good..wif their hair done up n all
N i rushed straight from work n even got wet in the rain
b4 i reached the hotel where it took place..
N i only reached there at 8pm

WELL..the food was real good..
N i especially luved the fruit custard!!! YUM YUMMM!!!!!
Priya..U are soo gonna kill me for this..
But when the waiter asked me if i wanted coke, orange juice, HENNESSY or water(hot/cold)
I said orange juice..I shld hav said hennessy N gotten WASTED huh..LOL

Newaes..after dinner i went to tell AMRIT i was leaving n she told me to stay for the
DANCE FLOOR! LOL
N so when i entered that room again..
GAWD! those waiters there were like soo nicee..
STILL GIVING me the look..
but they were like tryna make way for me n all..
even though i cld get by them jus fine..LOL

So i stayed on..
N AMRIT treated me like FAMILY!
GAWD! it felt soo NICEEE!
N I got to MEET amrit's UNCLE
N he treated me well too!

Then I took pics wif amrit n her cousins n all wif the bride n groom togther..
IT really FELT soo nicee to be treated like tt..
SERIOUSLY!

EVEN on the dance floor..OH MY GAWD!
AMRIT's SIS N HUSBAND N AMRIT N HER COUSINS!
I DANCED WIF ALL OF THEM..
N THE CAMERAMAN TOOK VIDEOS of us DANCING..LOL
MY FACE is LIKE soo gonna be in the wedding video..LOL

It was 11.30 when i finally left N everyone was still DANCING!
I still wanted to be there..but then i had to be home b4 12am
N i needed to get a cab..
I bid everyone farewell..N was about to leave
when AMRIT's mother told me to stay on..so that they'll send me back later..
but then i told her i can't..so..she asked a fren of hers to drive me back home..
SO SWEET la..

My mother was like thinking i was in a taxi the whole time..hehexz..
In the end..i still didn't tell her..

Newaes..i got back home..N am officially screwed cuz i can't go for any more weddings..
Since i got home at 12am..But who cares the next one will be AMRIT's
N noone can stop me from gg to that one..LOL

Then after getting back..I went online straight!
CHEERED my bestie up..then surprisingly one of my guy frens
who i havn't chatted for a long time was online..
N he asked if he cld take me out for a movie sumtime
HE has asked me soo many times alrd..
N i have rejected his offers soo many times cuz of certain circumctances..
So i felt soo bad to say no to him this time..
So i told him sure..
N now we'll be gg out to watch the movie the holidae!
which is TMR!

please believe me again at 11:48 PM

Y
Saturday, December 16, 2006

hmM..todae I saw DANIEL..
He's like DAMN tall!
N he has LONG hair..like..well
i actually dunno how to explain..
Aniwaes..he was even wearing a hairband..
WHICH is like SOO soOOO GAY!
But he's real nicee..
Jus like everyone else..

N all the ppl i like came to work todae..YAY!
N they helped me soo much!
Not ONE thing in the shop went missing
when i went for my break.. =))

N tt cleaner dude..FOREVER tryna be friendly wif me..
SMILE at me nearly every single time
he walks pass me or smth..
which is like ALOT!
N then after work ended..
I was walking out of the staff entrance
N was heading to the mrt station..
wth la..MY unfortunate TIMING!
that guy came out of NOWHERE..
actually he came out of a door..
BUT tts not the point..
The pt is..he actually said Byyye to ME..
LIKE HELLO!
DO I EVEN NOE U??
NVM..i'm nicee..
right..i'll rmb tt next time..LOL

Todae work wasn't at all that tiring..
It was pretty ok..
MAYBE its cuz i was thinking of
MR SEXYBACK like nearly the entire time!
HE jus makes me smile..
oOpz..i meant SHE..LOL

N on my way home todae
I saw these 3 guys skateboarding
at hg interchange..
One of them was a malay guy
N he was really quite good looking..
fair n all..N all he was wearing was
a dark blue t-shirt n light brown pants..
BUT he LOOKED soo damn FINE
skateboarding..LOL

Speaking of looking so DAMN FINE..
there's this shop in TANGS called
narsisco rodreguies (or smth like tt..I dunno how it's spelt)
ANIWAES..there ARE two blonde haired
caucasian guys in black coat n tie working there..
N i've got to admit it..
THEY are pretty DARN FINE!...LOL

okies..I OFFICIALLY LOVE working at VIVO!!!!!
there's SOOO MUCH EYE CANDY for mE!!!! LOL

N rt now..i'm feeling rather sleepy..*yAwnS*

N tmr I've got work
N i also have got to attend Amrit's bro's wedding thingy..
N Amrit does not even noe i'm working on that dae..
I'm SOO gonna be late..but i hope she understands..
N i have to be soo damn friendly that dae!
which basically means..I need sumone to get me HIGH!
Anyone up for it?? LOL

I feel like I am SOO unreasonable at times..
I noe I am..but still..
haizz..

N apparently ystdae sumone sent me a msg..
saying that they still care abt me..FOREVER!
LOL..
GAWD! how can you ever be sure that it'll be forever??
NVM..they say actions speak louder than words..SO..
we'll see if its really true from that person's actions shall we?
hehexz..

MR SEXYBACK just SERIOUSLY
brought SEXY BACK!
I AM DYING HERE! LOL

please believe me again at 7:35 PM

ConTrAdiCtiOnS

loOk at mE..vUlNerAbLe n cOLd n tEll mE nOw
tHaT yOu'Re nEvEr goNnA LeAvE mE aLoNe..
TeLL mE tHaT yOu cArE N mAke mE beLiEvE yOu..

BeHiNd tHeSe bRoWn eYes LiEs
tRutHs NeVeR tOld..

LoSt in mY wOrld wHere mY

tHoUgHts are cLoUdEd wIf

dReAmS n WoNdEr..

Now..wHy dOn'T yOu jUs LeAvE mE aLoNE

FoR I dOn'T wAnT yoU tO eVeR

nOe wHaT i NoE,,

yOu SuRe

yOu'Re uP tO iT??

mY sMiLe iS mY bIgGeSt LiE..BeLiEvE iT..

please believe me again at 4:05 AM

U noe these daes..
its like fighting a lost battle..
life is unfair..
it gives u soo many problems..
i mean its not only frens..
its parents too!
They jus make ur life a living hell!
when life is already like soo IN UR FACE!

LIFE IS HARSH!
ITS BRUTAL!
ALONE..its soo easy to break from within
N FALL

Talking to my bestiie todae helped soo much..
I mean..she cares like soo much...
N we are soo alike..
I mean the everydae problems we face..
I cried todae in the MRT station after work..
N i cldn't care less abt how i looked..
cuz seriously..I felt like pure shitt alrd..
Its not work..N its not even frens..
Its cuz of my ******* parents..

I'm soo PISSED off wif them
N actually wif a certain few other ppl too..
I dunno when i'll talk to them again..
cuz of the way i feel..
But now..i jus wanna stay away from home MORE!
SOOO SOOO MUCH MORE!

When i went to Amrit's hse todae..
I felt soo happy!
The second I left..
I jus dreaded going back home..
Why???
I dunno..but maybe i do..I jus dun wanna noe..
Cuz i'm tryna forget..

Newaes I watched step up jus now all thanks to Harinder!
He told me abt this website : www.peekvid.com
you can watch soo many movies there..even like the lastest ones..
such a cool webbie!
I SOO LUV IT!

WAD I LUV MORE..is..
MR SEXYBACK!
GOSH..SHE/HE IS SOO HOOTTTT!!!!
I LUV HERR!!!!
heyy..bestiie..DON'T STEAL!
I'll try to get u a better one k??
jus leave this one to ME..LOL

Newaes..its jus soo irritating..
with ppl asking you if u r angry..
I mean come on..
u noe n still ask..tts dumb!
if u dunno n ask..tts STILL even MORE so DUMB!
Wadever it is..I'm pisSed oFf!

Thank gawd I've got my gal here wif me!
For me to spill nth n everything to!
I luv yA FOR LIFE!

LIFE IS FUCKED UP!
N i've JUS gotta learn to DEAL!
N if I've got HER wif me..
WHO else DO i NEED?
MY BESTIE is ALL i NEED
to GET THRU THIS!
WE CAN STEP UP TOGETHER!
cuz we both noe..
WE don't do too well on our OWN..

*sHoUtOuT*
PRIYA! GAL,, THX SOO MUCH
FOR MAKING ME FEEL BETTER!
LUV YA! LUV YA WAY TOO MUCH!
N make sure no bathroom screen
or mirror or whatever gets you down next time..
TAKE CARE! =))

Tmr or rather todae..i'm gonna meet DANIEL..
I rather prefer seeing EUGENE!
He is like soo cute!
N niceee!
Nvm..i shall see wad DANIEL is like first..

Morning shift makes me soo upset!
I think abt shitt
N get nth but pure shitt in my life..
I'm even starting to smile to that
IDIOTIC cleaner dude..
who alwaes looks at me n
tries to get all friendly wif me..
LIKE WADEVER!!!..

haizz..I need to do smth wif my LIFE..
work makes me soo BORING!
I think i need retail therapy
N i need LOADS n LOADS of CHOCOLATES
N then i'd feel MUCH muCh BETTER! whOoTs! =))

when reason sees no reason at all..
life becomes a lie..

please believe me again at 1:15 AM

Y
Thursday, December 14, 2006

Todae I woke up around 12 and
burnt all the cds
dhinesh had actually helped me borrow
cuz i didn't have time to watch them all..

I realised i got a msg and
also a call fromYvette when i got up at 10.40
the msg was telling me to
help replace Aaron for his shift todae..
At Tangs Orchard..but i soo did not want to go..
So instead of replying to her msg or calling her back..
I slacked summore on my WONDERFUL bed! LOL
Then a few mins later i got another call from Yvette
N this time i purposely didn't pick it up..
N then abt half an hr later..
I got another sms saying that
Aaron is gonna work as planned
so i don't have to replace his shift..

N then i slept again..HAPPILY wifout any worries
N got up at 12.30 n i was like SHiTT..
I have to go out todae..
Finally I got ready n left my hse at 3

Todae I was supposed to meet karthik n dhinesh..
but then when i msged them..
they didn't reply..
n when i called either of them..
they also didn't answer..
SERIOUSLY IRRITATING N ANNOYING!

Aniwaes..this guy made my dae
by giving me the look he did..
I was like soo HAPPY for the rest of the dae
cuz of tt dude!
hahaxz..LOL

Well wad happened was..
todae since i had run out of
absolutely all my choices of clothes
that i wanted to wear out..
I ended up wearing this stupid short skirt
which was soo LOOSE
i had to actually put a safety pin on it for it to fit me!
N i wore this racerback top wif a cardigan over it..
basically..it was an outfit..
I soo did not want to wear!
BUT i had no choice..

N then i went to vivo..
n i was walking around looking for
Fashion City.. BuT i ended up going the wrong way..
N even though I knew it
i didn't really care cuz i saw this shop
selling JEANS! omG!
I've been looking for one since like ages!
it looked nicee..but it was 32 bucks..
N i didn't wanna speand tt much money
on a pair of jeans..
I mean..even the JEANS i have rt now
was like 15 bucks..LOL
HmM..basically I guess i like to have nicee clothes
N look good on LESS! =))
I mean why spend soo much money rt..

Aniwaes..I was walked out of the shop
n decided to go the other way
N find my way to Fashion City...
when..omg! I can't even type it out!
I'm feeling BREATHLESS even rt now! LOL

okok..WHEN..this GORGEOUS dude..
wearing a red t-shirt wif jeans..
BlOnDe hAir N GrEeN EyEs loOked at me!
N he didn't LooK away!
He locked eyes wif ME..
N then he stopped talking to his fren..
N THEN..he moved a lil to the right to
where i was standing n walking..
N THEN... HE gave me a ONCE-OVER!
AFTER thAt..HE lOcKed EyeS wif me AGAIN!!!!!
GAWD! I WANTED TO DIEEE!!!
I SOO WANTED TO SMILE!
CUZ after he gave me the ONCE-OVER..
he gave me THAT look which tells u..
I LIKE wad I'm SEEING!
n he loOked like he was like half smiling
N half NOT!
I JUST cld NOT take it ANYMORE!
N I tOrE my gaze AWAY from him
and turned the corner N WALKED away!
ALL this happened in jus a few seconds!
But..THE MEMORY OF THIS will DEFINITELY
last me a LIFETIME! =)))))

I was like SOO EFFING happy cuz of tt!
Made mE want to DIE plz!
Whoever he was..HE SOO MADE MY DAE!

Then after shopping at Fashion City..
I went to Hg Mall to return the cds..
N then bought some stuff to eat
N then went home..
I reached home around 7 plus..
But noone said anything..
N for the FIRST time in my LIFE
my dad did not say anything
abt my short skirt..WhEeE! LOL

Tmr is work
N its morning shift..hopefully..
i wldn't fall asleep on the clothes..
Or in the storeroom..LOL

N gawd are SOME ppl SOO ANNOYING! haizz..
nvm..
MY BlOnDe hAiRed GrEeN eYeD
gOrgEoUs made up for it! LOL

N yEs yeS..Mahes IS trying to KILL mE
wif her msn dps..
So IF i'm dead tmr..
U guys noe where to find me..LOL

please believe me again at 8:36 PM