Nobody understands the pain i feel
Noone gets it..

Life is hElL
So i plaster a smile on my face..
Even though my heart's in a race
Asking me a qn that my mind cannot answer..
To live or to die?
For when i live i feel..
N when i die i'm numb..
I'm already dead inside..
So i guess i'm living a lie

Nobody noes what i'm going through
N noone cares to find out
N even when they try
I'm afraid to step up to the truth
For i might cry

Pain doesn't feel good at all
N when i cry it hurts so much more..
I rather live in a world of denial
Where nothing is what it seems
N yet where everything seems perfect
I rather FAKE IT ALL wif a smile!

What scares me the most..
Is when people can tell its all a facade
N ask the most dreaded qn..
Are you ok?

I guess i am..(its a denial)
I am not..(that's the truth)

What's wrong?
I dunno...cuz i don't wanna feel..
So stop asking me to..
For u should noe..
i rather die than do that

I'm been lying to myself all this time
And when it comes to my frens
all they can ask me is in what am i in denial about..
Here's the simple answer: LIFE..

And so i move along with each passing day..
Hoping noone will be able to tear me down
N get under my skin..
How much more tears do i have to shed
Before I finally realise..where i am heading
Its NOWHERE!

It hurts..It hurts..It hurts SOO BAD!
Won'T SUMBODY NUMB THE PAIN??
PLZ!

Sumtimes i feel like taking soo many pills
Till I die..Then i realise..what i'm leaving behind..
I can't leave and I can't stay..

Tomorrow i'm having an exam..i can't afford to feel..
I need to clear my thoughts..
I just hope OTH can do the trick..

Have faith is what you say..
But faith N hope
Are total opposites!



I've reached the brink of insanity and am back again..
Hope time will make this pain fade!